~:: SiStEr DeViL'S Pierrot+Slumber ::~

What is your resolution??

2012-01-06T07:49:00.001+08:00

Happy brand new year to all and as new year hit, there will be new resolution or the last year resolution that have yet to accomplish bring forward this year. Well I did.

This year will have some set of stuff I want to do. First more posting of blog, new pic to upload, be more healthy, finish up my unfinish business like moto bike license, refreshment course, loosing weight and new addition makeup class. Yes makeup!!! I hope to obtain diploma in makeup and start sideline freelance makeup artist like some of the celebrities Michelle Pang, Kandee Johnson and others. Nope I not chasing fame. I just want to chase my dream to make all the ladies to be more beautiful and confident. Nobody are born ugly, period!!

Look what have I found

2011-10-24T06:03:00.001+08:00

Guess how much I purchase it?
Just SGD 3 only at Forever 21. The smell and the function is as same as my Art Collection lip gloss that supposely pout my lips. But I do recommend to young ladies who are still schooling or about to start up career. Forever 21 do have other accessories, shoes, toileteries and most of all clothing. Should check out somerset (serious can't remember the name of the building) as they have up to 4th floor and its easy on the money too. Unfortunely Forever 21, doesn't cater my size so cant tell much of the comforter level. Maybe you would like to share ???

I'm Back...

2011-10-23T00:10:00.003+08:00

Since I tried to merge blogger with Tumblr, guess I miss writing down here and get comments from people on the field. Don't worry even though its about my personal life and a merge of makeup, haul, etc., there also some stuff I'm selling. Let say nails art, air brush art, jewelery, bedazzle items, and even 2nd hand items to be sold.

Good news since its been ages, I would like to sell my 2nd hand items:-

http://www.imaging-resource.com/PRODS/EPL1/EPL1A2.HTM

Yes my Olympus PEN E-PL1.... confirm most of you might thinking, what the heck this girl is thinking of selling her gadget? Must be something wrong with the camera. Seriously it NOTHING wrongly, except there is scratch at the bottom of the camera due to unscrew the camera from the tripod. Function, picture and recording is guarantee okie.

I shall give the bag, additional battery, additional memory card (never used it at all), charges and tripod for only SGD 625. In retail market, the lowest is SGD 698 (excluding GST).

My Sister and my friends did asked me why don't I purchase other competitive brands. SERIOUSLY, other brand is either bulky, heavy and there only one color (like really they came in black!!). With Olympus PEN E-PL1, its like weight, come with 4 colors, (white, champagne, silver and black). Mine is the same as the display picture. Futhermore some SDLR camera doubt have camera recording and picture beautiful.... imperfection skin will have flawless.

To be in detail, you can look through the specification and overview of this camera with the link provided below. Its rather more technical and depth that I have problem to understand 100% but as long as I got the angle, its will be alright with me.

http://www.imaging-resource.com/PRODS/EPL1/EPL1A.HTM

Any interested buyers, do drop me IM in

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Happy Belated 28th Birthday to me... and Happy Boxing day

2010-12-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah Yeah... finally its a year older for me, gracefully mature and getting old... ya for some they will freak out if they found lines around their eyes mouth areas... well I do freak out especially my eye bag area... do pardon me for laughing so much over the years... hummm nothing to be paranoid about its just to show that I really have great time in life....

Taking about my b'day celebration over the week days.. its really glutton... cake, ice cream, chocolate, fizzy drinks... lol December oh December, just because it my day, doesn't means I gonna be looking like Giant marshmallow from Ghost Buster... OMG even over the weekend my cousin wedding... i wore expanded pants... half naked, looking myself into the side mirror... I look like one pregnant woman for 4 to 5 months... imaging that.. even today shorty making fun of my layering fat... OK NOW HAVE TO TAKE ACTION...c cannot cannot...

Then this morning, going through facebook, dump into my Ragnarok friends and he's also going to weight loss program of himself... he need to lost about 15 pound... hummm I think I need to lose alot more... so I did asked him to be my diet partner and post up my daily food intake of what did I ate for a day. Lucky me he agreed. BUT seriously I wont be counting on calories... I mean its so troublesome and the food we ate here does not reflect in Ah mong's diet list... do they have Mee Siam over there in US?? I still eat BUT avoid oily stuff, coconut stuffing, definitely not touching beef... well except in burgers... super cut down on sweet stuff, fizzy drinks (If I really want to drink, then have to make a ratio of 1:2 = 1 glass of fizzy drinks : 2 glass of warm plain water). Have to stock up alot of fruits in the office and at home... I want honey drew and rock melon.....

Here is the articles that I have pick up from the news letter and its pretty helpful too...

The Right Snacks When Calorie Counting

Snacking itself is not bad — it can actually help with calorie counting as long as you make smart choices. Pick a tasty blend of protein, fat, and carbs for the best snacks.

By Madeline Vann, MPH

Medically reviewed by Pat F. Bass III, MD, MPH

Believe it or not, snacks can actually strengthen your calorie-counting efforts. Simply making a healthy snack choice could keep you happier and more successful with your diet.

“If you go too long without eating, you are hungrier than you would be without a snack,” says Catherine Bethea Dempsey, RD, LD, dietitian and research coordinator at the University of Alabama at Birmingham. Starve yourself and you are likely to overcompensate at your next meal, warns Dempsey, adding, “A 150-calorie snack will save you more than that at dinner.”

Calorie Counting and Snacks

There are a few rules to follow if you want this snack strategy to work:

* Count the calories in those snacks. You have to include the calorie count of each snack in your total calorie count. Seems like a no-brainer, but it’s easy to forget about a handful of pretzels or nuts here and there.

* Be picky. You shouldn’t snack on just anything — you still want to find healthy, diet-friendly options.

* Plan ahead. "Know thyself" is a motto to follow. Expecting that you’ll be hungry and figuring out what to eat ahead of time will make you more successful when hunger strikes. If you tend to get ravenously hungry in the mid-afternoon, be ready for a snack attack.

Best Snacks for Your Diet

Dempsey suggests snacks that offer “a bit of fat, carbohydrates, and protein.” This combination is likely to help ward off hunger longer, making it a smart use of calories. Her specific recommendations include:

* Yogurt and fruit

* A very small handful of nuts — it’s easy to get carried away with nuts, which are healthy but pack a calorie wallop

* Low-fat cottage cheese and fruit

* Sliced tomatoes, cucumbers, cottage cheese, and low-fat salad dressing — Dempsey’s personal favorite

* Fruit slices or chunks topped with a tablespoon of peanut butter

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Best Vending Machine Snacks

It’s almost inevitable that one day you will find yourself with no option but to faint from hunger or put your dollar in a vending machine. Have no fear — you can still make a choice that will not ruin your calorie counting.

“The best thing is to get a bottle of water and a granola bar,” says Dempsey. Almost every vending machine offers granola bars, but if you are faced with one that doesn’t, choose pretzels over chips, Dempsey advises.

Tempting as chocolate might be, avoid it. High-sugar snacks will simply put you back in the cycle of sugar highs and lows, which means that kind of snack won’t help you hold off hunger for long. The peanuts or almonds in some candies may be good for you, but they don’t make up for the total damage.

Though it doesn’t offer any nutrition, that old standard, sugarless gum, may be a good choice. A recent study of 115 adults showed that those who chewed sugarless gum about once an hour for three hours between lunch and a mid-afternoon snack ate 40 fewer calories in snacks than those who did not chew gum.

The bottom line on snacks: Making the right choices can keep your calorie counting and weight-loss goals on track.

Last Updated: 11/30/2009

This section created and produced exclusively by the editorial staff of EverydayHealth.com. © 2010 EverydayHealth.com; all rights reserved.

The Gazette - The Invisible Wall

2010-10-23T11:51:00.000+08:00

No matter how long the song have release, but I still love this single. This is the almost full english song that Ruki have sang. After the "2nd" breakup with the same guy (I know I shouldn't be together with him) this song somehow answer my question to him... "why are you still breath?" Well more like I though you have change or improve and wanna to give this relationship the 2nd chance but you still your old way so why are you still breath.. lol ya the song have no interlink but gave me the 2 cent to break away from all bond I had with him.

Anyway break away from my "drama", this song have alot expression and feeling... should i say that correct. And love the background with Japanese paper wall, sliding door.. tatami is it the name? Do correct me. Ruki being sexy and fierce at the same time, wow that what I call dangerous guy...grrr

Keeping Your Rear Clear of Acne

2010-09-29T16:43:00.000+08:00

Embarrassed by an acne breakout on your butt? No worries! Here's how to clear up the skin on your backside.

By Dr. Jessica Wu
taken @ http://www.dailyglow.com/personal-care-tips/keeping-your-rear-clear-of-acne.html?xid=nl_TodaysHighlightFromDailyGlow_20100929

Q: I got some new lingerie to impress my guy, but I’m too embarrassed to show it off because I’m broken out all over my butt. What’s happening, and how can I clear it up?

A: It sounds as if you have butt acne, also known as butt-ne. Breakouts in this area can be caused by clogged pores, just like facial acne. Other common causes include plugged hair follicles (keratosis pilaris), sweat bumps (miliaria), and friction from clothing. In some cases, a bacterial infection (like staph) can cause pimples on the butt. To keep your booty clear, follow these tips:

Exfoliate. The skin on those cheeks doesn’t turn over as quickly as the cheeks on your face, so help it along by exfoliating with a moisturizing body scrub. I like Carol’s Daughter Almond Cookie Sea Salt Scrub, which contains only natural ingredients, including sweet almond, avocado, soybean, and wheat germ oils. You can also use a loofah, washcloth, or even a dish towel, which, because it dries faster than most washcloths, is less likely to grow mold and bacteria.

Medicate. If the bumps are rough, a buildup of dead skin cells is probably the culprit. Look for scrubs and lotions with lactic or salicylic acid (like OXY Maximum Hydrating body wash with 2 percent salicylic acid) to help dissolve them. If the bumps are whiteheads, try a benzoyl peroxide wash like DDF Pumice Acne Scrub with 2 1/2 percent benzoyl peroxide.

Wear loose clothing. This will help prevent friction, which can clog sweat glands and lead to sweat bumps. If you must wear tight, stretchy workout clothes, try to shower immediately after.

If your butt remains pimply after following these tips, ask your doctor whether prescription acne pads would help. I often prescribe medicated pads, such as clindamycin wipes, for my patients with stubborn butt-ne. If your bumps are spreading or you have painful, weeping boils, you may have a bacterial infection, so be sure to show your doctor.

Last Updated: Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Jessica Wu, M.D., is a graduate of Harvard Medical School. In addition to taking care of patients in her private practice in Los Angeles, she conducts clinical trials on the latest cosmetic treatments and teaches at USC Medical School, where she’s Assistant Clinical Professor of Dermatology. She’s obsessed with beauty products and has made it her mission to help you stay healthy and beautiful.

Don't Be Embarrassed...
Ask Dr. Jessica Wu your most personal skin questions — from bikini rash to wrinkles, acne to psoriasis. Whatever the bump, rash, or scar, Dr. Wu can provide professional, frank, helpful advice.

Questions@AskJessicaWu.com

P/S: I post is up not because I want to show my butts to any guys... but I envy some girls have smooth baby bottom where else.... you know where I'm going ahhhh... so maybe here are something for some people who are embrassed like me who want to find the solution to have that kind of butt.

2nd Post of the day... let talk about Dry Hair

2010-09-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

Ya maybe I got alot to talk about tho... wahaha... so today topic gonna be about dry hair... yes dry hair due to weather, chemical hair product, etc etc etc... my hair is so dry and by drinking alot of water doesn't help if you don't apply some hair product for better coverage and remedy... seriously people I wasn't born with good hair that walks out from saloon. Do you know I have the wish to had a saloon in house. That if my room were big enough to hold one. I tried so many product off the selves but some are temporary and some works awhile then my hair start to behave on their own.. I have to tie it up altho the hair did not dried completely... then follow by flakes... and I do mean the itchy flake... its sooo not nice.. its not dandruff tho...

The only remedy I learn since young... baby oil or olive oil... they do work.. but yes abit greasy... but now day they sold less greasy that kind of stuff on the shelve in any supermarket, pharmacy, watson etc... but don't put alot during the days... surely will be greasy and the hair fall onto the face and create pimples gosh!!!
I did tried product for dry hair, frizzy hair, damage hair etc you name it.. so maybe you have remedy of your know that can help up with dry hair

Food Haven

2010-09-19T07:41:00.000+08:00

Talking about resolution to slim down... During Hari Raya surely there alot of goodies and food to fest on and furthermore if you go down to Malaysia... OMG yesterday I think I ate 4 big meals... no kidding and my stomach have no allowances... (no spare place)
Lets break it down... Mee Rebus with paru for breakfast

, then I took small slice of food cake.... Reach JB slightly full, take maggie mee goreng with sambal chicken and egg... chicken finish.. but noodle and egg didnt... at my aunt house she cook mee siam but I couldnt ate it... (i think also cuz I drank frizzy drinks that why my stomach is bloated)

then my cousin they bought ice cream so guess sweet drinks with ice cream... during this time i feeling miserable.. too much gas in my stomach... then go to my grandfather house... go to season where my another cousin is working, ate sticky chewing chocolate but since sticky chewing chocolate is out of stock, they replace it with normal chocolate... (i do not know how many scope of ice cream does my cousin gave but what I know this is the first time I was super full of ice cream)...

the going back time we went to Kampung Melayu for dinner... I got myself Nasi Ayam Sambal... but I only can finish the chicken and half of the rice... plus the satay also have to pack and bring back... GOD I ate like a bear!!!

So right now waiting to go toilet to deposit whatever i ate for the pass two days.. YES two days... my stomach is bloated and I keep giving out toxin gas out from my system...

Ya since Friday till now I don't felt my system is really clean... gosh now need to detox it....
I better start my diet before the D&D liao or I DO NOT HAVE the outfit that I want

Its raining.... and stomach full

2010-09-17T14:02:00.000+08:00

Gosh the yesterday dinner really gotten my butt burning hot due to excess chillie in my system... I think I ate alot... Kimchi Ramen and 6pcs of Fried Dumpling... lol.. bought it at Banquett @ Jurong Point. Ok, Ok I was suppose to watch my diet and stuff... but who could resist Spicy Kimchi Ramen... but the actual Kimchi I find it rather...diaoz... sorry I did try and some people love it... I think I will go with the soupy kind. Then during lunch got myself heartily Malay Duck rice with sambal... the rice is extremely big quantity that I have gone to hibernation mode couple of time... God, so sleepy!!! And guess what... I really dooze off during office hours.... =.= so children DO NOT FOLLOW AUNTY WAY!!!

I have been browse through facebook and bump into one of the game Critter Island... Its more like you have an island and objective you have to create a fun place for your customers... sound simple but you have to stock up your resources in each of individual chain. And you can leave it running by its own. How great is that... so I'm doing my stuff and I can level up my character and cash in some money to upgrade... oh ya... the more you upgrade the more captial you gain... its more of strategy game actually.

Is it kawaii??

The bird eye view of the island... its really fun tho.

Guilty Pleasure

2010-09-16T13:50:00.001+08:00

Seriously... maybe I was as hungry as bear during dinner time... guess what I cook during dinner time.... Two package of instant fried noodle, two hotdog, a whole package of shiitake mushroom tempura dip in mayo... OMG that is really guilty... I manage to finish the mushroom but not the hotdog and noodle... end up twisting onto the disc and do some swing before going to bath and bed... in the morning, the feeling of throwing up.. cuz too full... luck I took diet pills (i know its no point to take that after what I have stuff into my throat).... then end up going to toilet and did my big business.... gross the after effect smell..... XP

Anyway I have this newsletter which they send daily through email and I gonna share with you about "Stressing Out, Gaining Weight, and Finally Losing it"
http://www.everydayhealth.com/blog/the-diet-detective/feed/
Some of the facts are actually true. I remember that its in exam period, and of course you will feeling really super stress out or brain block.. what will you do?? Many of us might extend our arm to find something to munch for a comfort or get distract as you find it too much to handle... Been there done that... as for result gain weight, grades suck and feeling demoralise... So I change the tactics... the next exam period, I would wake up really earlier for morning prayer BUT after that don't go back to sleep. Instead do some stretching and when the morning sun hit the nice shine, I will change to jogging gear and hit the parks... (actually I don't jog... just brisk walking). After the session, you felt recharge, energize and up lift... and you being more focus and yup keep your weight in check. I mean its ok to go out and have a fresh air... it keep your mind relax and oxygen increase in the brain...

Another one is about "Lifestyle Factor That Affect Mood". It describe how to overcome the depression and they have total 12 short page describe "Use these strategies to manage the symptoms of depression, promote positive thinking, alleviate stress, and boost your self-esteem." recommend to read it up... really good and I believe we ever been into that stage before. But how we get ourselve out is another story.. so here is the link to check it out. http://www.everydayhealth.com/depression-photos/ways-to-cope-with-depression.aspx?xid=nl_EverydayHealthWomensHealth_20100915

Lol but before end today blogging, here is my all time fav. PV by Smile - Darling... I simply love the song and tempo.. somehow have a feeling a guy singing to you, calling you darling... ohhh I could just melt... XD

Dinner and Dance

2010-09-15T18:42:00.000+08:00

Ok so my company will held D&D in November... but now only September... so what the rush?!?!

Of course I need to do some research of makeups, hairdos and clothing on that day... so what is the theme... I heard is something like All Over the World or Cruise to world... something like that.... maybe you might think, 'why all the fuss? Just wear Baju kurung or Kebaya and be done with it!!' Well the last time during one of the function, I wore baju kurung and that baju stick to my back of the body due to perspire.... Gosh that so uncomfortable...

I have the idea to get kimono but I heard in Japan to get one good quality kimono can cost bout thousand over and the cheapest is about hundred plus... so I'm guessing another option, to go as cosplay or send for tailor made using similar fabric to kimono.

Yes before I forget, awhile surfing net to get insipration, I bump into this website which have catergories of make up tips and such... really useful.. http://makeup.lovetoknow.com/Category:Makeup_Tips
It not just about makeup but whole lot from entertaiment, sports, travel, financial etc you name it... so I gonna save the blog at the bottom so you go and see it yourself.

Newer updating version

2010-09-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

Hi all.... I know, I know its been many months didn't updated anything since... erm the breakup episode and since then the blog seems kinda gloomy, depress, angry and sad. SO that is why there is alot of new changes... and I do mean NEW changes. So right now the blog page have a refreshing and happy looking page.

Ya, being having hectic lifestyle, juggling work, study, family and social life...that why the blog was "abandon". Have no fear... I will start a new topic, new story and though of the day (if I not that busy)... and will upload picture of stuff which I find it Kawaii, products which I think is best to use and wear... etc...

Oh ya, Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri to all my muslim brothers and sisters... hope its wasn't too late to wish.

Missing Tetsuki 쉰 칸 룹

2010-03-17T18:48:00.000+08:00

I know i was suppose to get over it by now, but each day the feeling have gone deeper and if to take away the romance and love, the caring is still there. I'm trying my very best not to get too engross... Everytime I done my prayer, I pray to HIM that at least make us feel closer and our string of relation stronger. But I don't know if I am getting drifted away from Tetsuki. Feeling so cold and distant is really killing me. I don't know if he still care for me or choose that way.

Well I did make a prank calls on him... its not stalking him but just wanna to have that communication which I felt have left astray for quiet sometime. I miss the time we communicated and sms.... I love that moment.

Done and over it

2010-02-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

Finally I have made up my decision and I have return Tetsuki stuff back to him. And thankfully I never turn back for once. God really made me stronger. Its not I hate him that kind its that, Two hand clap made sound and one hand clap??? I grew tired with his silence and sms being ignored. I don't know what's going on and why am I being turn away? Like he totally trying to avoid me and its hurt so much.

Right now "Reila" is curl up in the cold shell, crying her hearts out. Being shelter with armor that was once she broke free from. Trying to fill in the void that once was residential by someone she love.

p/s: Tetsuki my feeling is numb so I think by now you also "happy" with the result

Bonus!!

2010-02-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

Finally got bonus and the first thing I got myself is a camera... well I have lost mine when journey back from JB after Oscar wedding... gosh most of my pictures were in there yet to transfer into the computer.... sob sob... I got myself Olympus u-7010. I dunno if to say old or not new model but the spec that I need it... its really fit to my taste... I dun need the complicated function and program tho.

And got myself another mobile phone LG lollipop in blue color. Its soooo kawaii... and its easy to use. Really love it. But I still kept my Nokia E71.

Hope and hopeless

2010-01-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

Guess at work I was hoping things were turn out as before like still flirting smsing each other that kind of stuff... but I guess really its just high hopes for me. I don't know what were I was thinking. I though he might remember me on my b'day or missing me or something... well I guess not anyway I did asked for the break... I did sms him and asked where is my b'day present? And maybe he kinda "piss" off and asked what do I really want him to give me.... if only I can say what I want will he really give me?!?! I guess not... so I reply back to him, never mind anyway my b'day wish aint coming true. If only I could turn back time, I will not rush into conclusion and fight for it. But I guess if really he wasn't meant for me then...

First step to healthier new year and Planning for Mama's bday

2010-01-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

Alright my butt is burning after going to toilet almost the whole evening and morning. And I cant help the feeling of the natural call urgently during my brisk walk. The motive of this exercise is to gain strength and loose weight.. that why I'm been popping the diet pills since I ate a lot of fried stuff or anything "heavy". But now my butt is burning and I'm been sitting side way.

Ok so my mum have request her b'day is Handbag from Bonia... any ideas cuz most of the bags which I look is too common and rather thumb down. So suggestion for mother in late 50s, what kind of bag is look chic, elegant and same time glamor??

Memories...

2010-01-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

I wish to close my eye & get myself lost in the world that I've created it. The world which everything is possible and nothing is impossible. But once I open my eyes, harsh reality welcomes me back. The dream I dream slowly fade away.... Missing someone and dream away with a memories.

Lately been thinking and dreamt about him. Its driving me nuts. Why do these though rewinding the time we are together and when time flirting with each other. Maybe I do miss him... but to what extend?? I'm the one who asked for breakup so I guess this is the retribution of it. Is it possible for us to be together again?? Will he accepted me or simply rejected me?? What is the reaction???

Today he just come back and I'm nervous... I dunno why I am. So do my new year gonna be good one or bleak???

Happy Belated 2010

2010-01-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

Its super crazy weeks and I got no time to go around shopping in town, working on my b'day and on the new year, falling sick and thinking of someone in almost every sleep... with the stock count and clearer of 2009 file need to be shift around to archive room at the top of the store. Gosh!! I need a breather!!! Ok so Ko Tun Tun win might be resign and went back to his hometown but I guess he will be happy to be with his love ones. And guess what coming over to the store, Thu Ra Kyaw.. he's from HAM side and working at sembawang.. but I guess I ok with it as long its not bangla is enuf.

So what is my New Year Resolution for this year???

SLIM DOWN... I taken this drink, its a slimming drink but its not that kind of the powdery dairy product or those slimming tea that have horrible taste that you have to bare just to slim down. My friend recommended me to this product and I thinking "Oh God another slimming product..." So how I get my hand on it?? The week of my b'day I been eating alot... really alot as it not my diet control, so I saw this Fruity Tea and when I took it, its taste great. Like sour plum drink... I really enjoy drinking it instead dread about it.
Pass my exams without failing it... I got really piss when they told me I have to repeat my whole module and not resit it. So this year... the year of the Tiger... gonna do it well and make sure no repeat.
Holiday
Find Boyfriend... hehe

Lolita23q - CERAMIC★STAR (English)

2009-12-21T08:56:00.002+08:00

Translation by: rookie_cherii @ LiveJournal.

I continue to choose the yearning.
For me, there’s only one important thing,
But I can’t get my hands on it though it’s right in front of my eyes.
I’ve even gotten used to roaming the nights.

Amongst the positive thoughts,
Believe your true self even when the thoughts become negative.
Surely,

(Chorus)

Listen to my memories
I remember heavenly
I want to shout into the unclear night which swallowed me.
Listen to my memories
I remember heavenly
That twinkling meteor which seized the clearing sky, I MISS YOU.

Startled by the complexion of my surroundings.
Startled by the things laying bare.
Although you tend to shut yourself,
Your true smile is so lovely.
Startdust like plastic and
Ceramic full moon are both just imitations, thus familiar in their weakness.

Morning changes into night,
White dyes to black,
I wonder why.
It’s just a little bit painful.
Hiding the weak things, too.
Wouldn’t you tell only me about them?
Secretly close to my ears.
Surely,

Listen to my memories
I remember heavenly
I’ll flap my wings in the night view,
If I’ll become a friend to the wind.
Listen to my memories
I remember heavenly
I’ll go ahead and pierce the darkness.
In the emptiness where I’m alone, PROMISE YOU.

What's in my bag / purse??

2009-12-20T21:32:00.005+08:00

I know that in the youtube there are bunch of people upload their recording of what they have in their bag.. well I shared with my friends what they have in their bag and stuff that some never expected to bring... But I just did it for the sake of fun and curiosity like what do they really carry, like Doreamon... Ok i just upload the pictures of items that I usually carry around, stuff that i cant live without it etc.

This is the current bag which I bought it for S$18 @ Jurong Point. The shop are having a sales for new arrived and S$25 too. Its stake pain to find a bag which really "me".

They have many compartment which I love and hate at the same time... love it is that there are alot of rooms and more organizes. The hate part is when you are rushing and trying to find the things you simply felt like throw this bag cuz dunno where is the items you are looking for.

They have this cute additional key-chains so to say, and its in the shape of the jeans. And this jean isn't just for display, its functional and you can actually put your lipgloss, lipstick or coin, anything that can fit it in. Really kawaii...

Seriously I don't know why but I love the logo and the Gothic Lolita effect. I got the wallet, handphone pouch and coin purse. Some people thinks its child dish but for me I dun care. I really adore it and its really unique. Ya the tricky part if its in my bag I get mix it alot and cant find either the wallet or the handphone.

MP3 is a must since I have to make myself awake or "deaf" throughout the journey to work. Without it, its like I cant stand it or I will get nuts. Keys for home and office, Translink card and umbrella... its monsoon season now so better carry liao.

Makeup kit?!?!

I don't carry makeup around since my makeup I left it in my office drawer. The only makeup I bring is the face powder which is for emergency use if I run out of oil paper. Tissue paper is a must. Mirror, lip balm... this is a must as I always got dried lips and causes bleed. Its painful so call me naive if you see me apply the lip balm in the public... you dunno the pain to have dried lips. Medical oil for the case of headaches and to re frame the unpleasant smell. Lastly thumbdrives... ya I got two cuz originally I "lost" the red thumbdrive and got to purchase another one. In the end I got two!!!

Hair clips for fringe, hair which I bun it up or if the change of mood I just use the bands.

And this is my partner in crime. I always try to carry it around with me. I want to have as many memories as possible and who knows you saw nice view or celebrity, at least you got a decent camera to snap the picture.

I got this kawaii bottles at Borders' Malaysia and I love the design.. its really japanese... actually there alot of design graphic but I wanna to get smaller bottle like 400ml - 500ml which can fit into my bag... I have to drink alot of water because I keep having dry lips and also to cut down sweet drinks.

Simply love this perfume, Love etc... from Bodyshop. Love the smell

New Layout

2009-12-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

It took me a really good few hours for me to modify the code. I love the layout but the coding is really bad... and I need to modify abit so that its really fit to my taste. This time around the layout have no Jrock but that doesnt mean I have dismiss my Jrock heyday... This layout somewhat fit to my current "situation" and it fit prefectly.

I will still post more Jrock lyrics and the translation if I can find... and please don't give me a credit to the lyrics as those lyrics doesn't belong to me. I just spreading my love to everyone who love music.. that all. So now counting down to my b'day which is to be correct is 5 days from now... GOSH A YEAR OLDER!!!

New Year Resolution...

2009-12-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

Islamic New Year Fall on 17th of December 2009. 1 Muharam 1431... And with this I would like to wish all my muslim brothers and sisters happy new year... its abit late but its better then forget right.

Anyway... my new year resolution....

Try to throw away the bad "habit"
Be a good child to my parent.
Study hard to pass my exam and the repeated one.
Get myself "fat"... (whenever I say I want to get slim I end up putting on weight so its more of revise physcologist)
Bike license
BOYFRIEND!!! Can I opt for Japanese man... hehe
Work hard and play hard

Some random stuff:- What do I need to buy actually???

Bras & Panties.... mine got hole already.
To get myself blod powder from MAC... I dunno why but I like wanna to try out stuff from them...
Get Brazilian waxing, to get rid the unwanted hair.
Clothes... Damn need to get office wear also as starting from 1st Jan, MUST wear office wear.. diaoz but I need to get pants first.
I did promise my sister that I gonna get her cake mixes
Oh ya need to get stationery for schooling
Pay School Fee
Comics at kinokuniya
Get present for Tun Tun, Ah Ben and Jasman's daughter
MAMA PRESENT!!!
Need organizer that shout. "Hey, I'm for you!!!"
Sport bra and shirt... need to start my healthy lifestyle.... I was thinking to get trackmill but where the heck I gonna put??

Smile - Darlin... love ya Kasumi

2009-12-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

Smile - Darlin

Romaji
This lyric was added by: ParasiteJely

Hey my darlin' kocchi wo muite. sekirara na atashi wo mite.
Teenage to wa omoenai desho? tawawa na kajitsu.
Never say good bye kaeshi wa shinai. shinshi butte furumatte mo
honto wa atsuku hajikeru passion!! sou ko nakucha!!

kouka na kuruma to kouka na kaban to kouka na tokei to kouka na kutsu
kouka na saifu to kouka na PANTSU to kouka na SUUTSU ni mi wo matoi
tsugou no ii hi no tsugou no ii toki tsugou no ii basho ni yobidashi
tsugou no ii atashi wo tanoshimu anata ga nikukute.

hidarite kusuri yubi ni hikaru yubiwa sae kakusou to mo shinai. anata rashii wa.
myou na yoyuu no naka de koro ga sare tsuduketa atashi ga...kono mama hiki sagaru wake ni ikanai!!

Hey my darlin' kocchi wo muite. sekirara na atashi wo mite.
Teenage to wa omoenai desho? tawawa na kajitsu.
Never say good bye kaeshi wa shinai. shinshi butte furumatte mo
honto wa atsuku hajikeru passion!! sou ko nakucha!!

kirei na o uchi to kirei na o niwa to kirei na okusan to kawaii kodomo
rippa na kigyou de rippa na yakushoku yuushuu ba buka ni kakomarete
tsugou no ii hi no tsugou no ii toki tsugou no ii basho ni dake yobareru
tsugou no ii atashi wa anata ni totte kuro rekishi?

saiai no hito kara sureba jama na sonzai desho. dorobou neko to yobarete mo kamawanai

Hey my darlin' kocchi wo muite. sekirara na atashi wo mite.
Teenage to wa omoenai desho? tawawa na kajitsu.
OJISAN nante iiwake wa kikanai. nemutte TATANAI furishite mo
honto wa IKERU hajikeru passion!! mada kaesanai!!

Hey my darlin' kocchi wo muite yo.
anata ga hoshii.
atashi wo mite yo.

Oh my mistake mou nukerarenai. reisei ni natta tsumori de mo
tomerarenai hajikeru passion!! osaerarenai

http://www.nautiljon.com/paroles/smile/darlin.html

English Translation
This lyric was added by: ParasiteJely

Hey my darlin', look this way
Look at my nakedness
You can't think this is teenage, right?
The branch is dripping with fruit
Never say goodbye, I won't be sent back

Even if you act like a gentleman, your lower half bursts hotly
PASSION!! Just as I thought !!

With your expensive car and your expensive briefcase
And your expensive watch and your expensive shoes
And your expensive wallet and your expensive underwear
And your expensive suit, you've dressed yourself

On the perfect day, at the perfect time
To the perfect place, I call you
While enjoying this perfect me
You're so hateful

Because I'm your beloved
Aren't I a nuisance ?
Even if you call me an adulterer
I don't care !!

http://www.nautiljon.com/paroles/smile/darlin.html

Ages I'm be finding this lyrics and finally I found it

To all broken hearted sisters

2009-12-07T14:25:00.001+08:00

JESSIE JAMES - I Look So Good (without You) lyrics

mhh yeahh

boy i would have thought that,

when you left me i'd be broken,

with my confidence gone,

so gone.

hey boy i would have thought that

when you said that you don't want me

i'd feel ugly as if something was wrong

standin' in front of the mirror

my skins never been clearer

my smiles never been whiter

(chorus:)

I look so good without you

Got me a new hair due

Lookin' fresh and brand new

since you said that we were through

done with your lies

baby now my tears dry

you can see my brown eyes

ever since you said goodbye

i look so good

i look so good without you

i look so good

i look so good without you

hey i never would have thought that

when you left me

i'd feel sexy and so good in my skin again

and i never would have known that

i'd be dreaming so much better

without you in my head

standin' in front of the mirror

my clothes never fit better

my laughs never been louder

(repeat chorus)

i look so good

i look so good without you

i look so good i look so good without you

now baby my body's lookin' better than before

ain't biting my nails since you walked out of that door

i realize now i deserve so much more

than what you give

than what you give

than what you give ohhhh

(repeat chorus)

For them who just broke up or the boyfriend left them, etc, this song really suitable to all of us. Why must we dwell the past, move forward and be happy with yourself. Don't have to linger long on the pass cuz maybe he found other partner and happily away. Put your hair down and shake ur thing, let loose abit and be comfortable with yourself. I been there and I done that. Yes its difficult at first but time will heals and with that what about color the town and filrting with some cool hunks >_<

Its december... 24 days to go

2009-12-01T11:06:00.004+08:00

Diaoz time do pass by fast and after this month is going to be new year... the hari raya at JB is really fun and I do enjoy my relatives, cousins, nephew and niece companies.. If only my late grandmother still alive and look at all these, surely she smile broadly... but in spiritually I think she might be happy to see us together as a family altho some of the family members couldn't make it.

Everytime step into that house, fills with childhood memories. I spent most of my childhood at JB and every holidays, I will try to come down and visit her. Memorial like playing fireworks, when there flood, we will just open the back door and jump into the water. Did some BBQ and randomly have family outings. Do miss those time with my grandmother.

The bad part of festival season, I tend to eat a lot of ketupat pulut... and now my face became round just for one day event... now I cutting down most of fried stuff and more non deep fried and anything that I can gain weight easily... gosh looking at all the redang (i don't quiet keen eating meat), sambal goreng kampung, ayam masak merah... as I type this I felt like drooling... stupid part knowing its too oily and "fattening" I didnt switch to ketupat. =.=....

Guess what we did managed to find A & W restaurant, but I hate to food quantity esp the burger... compare to Ramblee Burger, I prefer Ramblee Burger special which they fold the burger meat in the egg and apply mayo, BBQ sauce and pepper with vege... and cost way cheaper then A & W... where else A & W the burger is the bread bun, meat and cheese... that pathetic.

I yet to list out my birthday wish list tho... lol maybe too busy to think for my own birthday... but what I know I gonna have BBQ on the 26th... hope Ella have book the pit. Well nothing special onli gonna have fun, playing some games and chit chat... hummm need to list out some of my friends who I gonna invite...

Testing using handphone

2009-11-29T06:55:00.002+08:00

ok feeling kind of weird using the phone to write down in blog instead using the computer keyboard. Well at least I can update awhile on the go tho.

I have a blast on the hari raya haji and ladies nite out ytd. We do go to esplanda for lunch at popeye. The food is rather deep fry which I not quiet like it for my take but seems I enjoy the whip potatoe... Totally different from KFC. After that go off to Sim Lim Square, Kin want to get for herself camcoder. ITS really chic and easy to use, lightweight and I guess its friendly use for the first timer. She got herself sony standard definition video camcorders... I nt sure which model. For myself.... =.= flip phone samsung handphone... gosh out of the blues. Cuz i was planning one of the phone serve as walking internet phone and another just a normal one. Anyway I got internet sim card and I seldom use it to serve internet... so might as well I used it.

Then after stroll some part of bugis we end up at Lido cineplex to watch New Moon... the 2nd time... =.= but I love the theater, its big, spacious and you don't actually like sitting in cinema... kinda concert theater. Guess what I got abit sian to watch same movie twice... Got my sister popcorn holder of New Moon... =.= imaging that. After the show, we just stroll down Orchard road which is now beautifully decorated with X'mas deco. I happily snap photos as if I am a tourist or something... HAHA.. can check out at my facebook for the picture.

He flying off

2009-11-26T19:27:00.006+08:00

I though I forgot about him

Feeling uneasy and being wanted

Hey ya heart, don't take control

Don't make me look like "easy"

Giving me a strength and be stronger

Today he going off,

Flying off to hometown,

Leaving on the planing

Coming back 44 days after

Gonna miss me, he say

Knowing you still have feeling

But trying to distance

Feeling miserable waiting to hear his voice

Waiting that all I can do, unknown.

Time to move it move it

Time to spread my wings and fly

No time for these unwanted feeling

Altho my itchy hand dailed his number... haha

Best wishes I can say

Take care always

Miss ya never say aloud

Because I know you are with SM. =.=""

Sad Mode

2009-11-21T22:41:00.003+08:00

The flash back from the 1st october kept playing in my mind....
The day when we confess feeling
I tho I am thru and over it.
But seems that its still lingers...
SO FUCKING UPSETTING ME SO MUCH....

I know its take time to recover... and I wish to recover it a.s.a.p....

But what I know is that one of my b'day wish wont come true in the end.
What I wish is for having a bf and celebrate my b'day with him...
hahaha wishes not suppose to come true after all...
Dream will faded like a mist.

To my "Dearest" Tetsuki

2009-11-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

10 things I hate about you

SMSes being ignored.... hate that so much
Never being treated like how a girlfriend should be treated
Not knowing how much you love me, how much you care about me.
Got problems, don't want to sit down and talk
Feeling insecured.... can't blame me cuz I dunno whats going on.
Not knowing where I stand.
Am I being teated with respect like how the boyfriend should treat.
Being "use" feeling... Hate that so much
Always I'm the one who doing the sms and asking about your well being.
Is this how love should be if I with you?

10 things I want from boyfriend...

Able to love with all my heart and he responding to my feeling too.
Hug me, make me feel secure
Responsibility
Caring and Sincerely
Understanding
Have sense of humor, making me giggle like a little girl when I received sms.
Treat me as a girlfriend, best friend and someone who he can talk to.
COMMUNICATION => Very Important....Got problem must talk
Trust => I usually give people 3 chances.
Accept me the way I am. Love me for me.

5 things I hate most...

Asking me to change but he himself never change... LOOK YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR!!!
DISHONEST!!! and never admit.
More sweet talk but no action... AINT GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN TO ME BABE, DEFINITY!
Being the third party... saw ya going out and holding hands like love bird... tell me about it
Gossiping... Aint that suppose to be secert between us?!

3 things that I regret....

Letting you playing with emotion
waiting for you not knowing the outcome
Crying over you, loosing my sleep and appetite... by the way I lost 3kg, thank you

10 things that I gain...

Thank you, now I grew mature and wiser
my face become clearer
my clothes are getting better
I can do my own things
DATING...
Got back my confident
Opening up my eyes to see clearer
Smiling broadly
Laughing
Being crazy self again

1 thing that I want to say to you....

LOVE YA.... as a friend only and NOT more than that.

Enjoy with your new life whoever she is that unlucky gal...

KISS KISS

SISTER DEVIL

Pounder and Wonder

2009-11-05T12:59:00.002+08:00

Hummm didnt see Tetsuki for these few days. Either hidding or MC for two days... what can I do? Is he ok?

Already early in the morning my boss called with the angry tone asking why can't I followed simply proper instruction. Why the big fuss? I just cc the email to the secretary. I though its a necessary to do that. If I never cc to that woman I got complain. If I did, I got scolding. Haiz... that is the life of middle person....

One week plus till exam... and I yet to get myself prepared to the extreme. Got alot of information to be swallow and store in my brain hard drive... gosh... I really need to put aside my love problem and get my brain drive to full potential. Wish me luck!!!

Aching Shoulder

2009-11-04T09:12:00.002+08:00

Die lah, my shoulder stiff and my neck can't rotate too much. Maybe was too tired and slept on one side. Yesterday I did wrote down a poem to Tetsuki, the honest feeling and how regret that I made such assumption. I don't know where am I going. If he still treated me as stranger, then I have to accept my fate that I not meant for him. Really gonna miss our daily teases, smsing and eye contact. I will really treasure the memories even its a short one. Its hurts and there a void in my heart. Emptiness.

Tragedy October

2009-11-03T12:01:00.002+08:00

If I could overcome my weakness,
I would like to be more patient,
Not Jumping into conclusion and not being short temper.

But is it too late? Have I lost IT?
I dont what to loose him, but if he bid farewell... what that means?

Is he just disappointed with me and wanna to cool down first or seriously that the end of it.
If that was what written in the fate book, I have to accept it and I have to let him go altho my heart still beating his name.

Konichiwa

2009-10-28T15:42:00.002+08:00

Life is full of ups and downs... pity me for being busy with School, Family, friends and extra additional too... he he .. It’s a new experience for me and really never expected that he respond the same feeling tho. But of course in every relationship it’s not all about rainbows and flowers with colourful environment. There are some boundaries to over come. Through those obstacle teaches us to learn from the mistake, be mature and move on. Don’t linger over the problem.
I still though it’s just a dream but it isn’t. Just that though he wasn’t serious, yes imaging who wants me to be their special one. I mean I don’t behave like lady like, curse and swear like a guy, talk aloud and don’t have graceful walk. Far fetch to get the guy that I so call got crush.

School, exam is around the corner and over the semester the module clashing against each other and I really got big headache to juggle all of them. It’s my mistake too. I shouldn’t choose 4 modules at one goal. Confirm my result aint that good this semester.

Further more Hari Raya just passby and didn’t manage to celebrate much. Handling assignment really hectic with the SAP thing going on which I have to cover up for Prema during her absence. Haiz

Account Closing

2009-03-25T17:58:00.002+08:00

Hehe I am not missing in action tho. Just rather busy with schooling now. Furthermore today is account closing and I still typing in the entries. Ya, economics is gloomy and alots of laid off going off around the companies. Now even my paper work is getting lesser... must get something to do or I will get rust.

And also I am manager-less... yes no manager in my department now. My lady boss now transfer to sales department as senior sales executive. And yet again create chaotic environment. Everyone at upstair office like "OMG" and begging me to take her back. Well its her first love... Sales. So I think she wont think twice about coming down.

Hows the school?? How could I say, its really fun and challenging. Challenging as in juggle work and studies and their standard is high. Must have good command in English to generate assay... Gosh!!! Dictorary has now become my "bible" book. But I have make up my mind to change course from Business Analystic to Logicstic & Supply Chain. Well at least that's really related to what I am doing now.

Few days ago really emotion rides for me. Ya lah firstly I have no manager to cover my back and the HOD come and so called interiogate me about the backlog. I did explain everything what's going on but turn out to be deaf tone. What do you expect?! I just join the company in 1997 and the problem is there, plus its during empirer ruling. So things does not go according to plans. You expect me like suddenly can settle everything. OMG this is ongoing learning leh... I learn on job... so there will be trials and errors. Good thing over here there no such thing as guns avaliable in store... or he is the one who gets it.... or to play safe get a voodoo doll and pins him all over... My old supervisor also another one... another KNS!! since the lady boss is no longer, he kinda got the power and its going into his head. Everything go up to HOD complain!!! not about me but my senior too!!! Wahhh one bloody toad he is!!!

Counting down to turning 26

2008-12-18T18:37:00.002+08:00

Yes time really fly by fast and soon there will be stock take and school gonna start... most probably on 19th January. Firstly few weeks ago I fell and my left big toe bleed... gosh that is so OUCH!!! then Hari Raya Haji... we went over to pasir gudang to celebrate with my relative from Malaysia... really nostagic feeling to spend together... the only sad thing is without my late grand mother... haiz

Then Friday is LADIES night, well not basically went pub or disco... just Karaok, to relief stress out... gosh Fadilah and I almost lost our voice... then the next day go to Unisim to make the fee...$1105+ fly liao for three course... I am feeling scared and excited... scared isn't mean how the school, what do the people think of me etc, that kind of stuff but more like whether I can cope or not... but excited is I going back to school again... LOL now is the time I wish for a boyfriend with transportation to shutter me between work to school... at least I wont be like chicken without the head.

At least YeYe going to continue study Diploma in Electrical Engineering... at least got kaki to go on the way to school. Dont worry... its not anything like dating him or something... or I will simply give him my super kick at his ass. Then Tetsuki also wanna to take up course in Mechatronic... then I did told him to try out same poly with YeYe... the more the merrier... ya the problem is that need the recommendation letter from HR Executive... plus YeYe is oversea onboard... Kaoz... at least Shorty gonna help out on getting the document from HR.. at least I won't be like idiot trying to find the main office in the poly.

Yesh cant wait for next week to go for Karaok session on the eve of the xmas... lol this time around Stanley cant sabo me and make me lost two front teeth. HoHoHo...

Yes!!! OMGIF

2008-11-21T21:31:00.002+08:00

Finally its friday...I getting toooo tired... I also dunno why actually.... Ella did asked me why do I look so tired recently... I did drink Vitamin C.... erm I think suppose to take vitamin B for tiredness lol... anyway.... now rushing off to clear up DO and PO for account closing...

This week is SAP week and the organizer DAMN SUCK MAN!!! I doubt Charo is the planner tho cause the one who gave the green light is another woman... gosh its that 4 days event buy 4 cartons of mineral water... plus est 30 over people.... OMG then its like the cookies, tibits and even lunches for guess not enough.... then nevermind that stupid bitch come accuse said that we store ppl go up and join the lunch.... OMG... your food also not fulfilling... I can read the Ah mongs minds... sure there alot of !@#$%^&* I rather go out and eat then touch those... OMG woman please dun think you so perrrrfeeccctttt and pushing the blames to others... go see yourself in the mirror and see whether its cracks or not. GOSH!!! then never mind the next following day... during the course not enough paper cups, coffee, tea, etc..... And I HAVE TO TOP IT UP!!! GOD HELP ME!!! Its not even my assignment. Then that day she order less pizza and she end up email to others saying there non participate individual came and stack up the pizza. Causes less food. Kaoz Hello you bought like 6 large pizza for the participant 3o over?!?! =.= I rather eat the grass. I pity Charo tho.....

Anyway dun want to think about it, tomorrow there will be soccer tournament going on and its verses with Paris' husband company.... All the best to you all.

Monday.... no bluesss

2008-11-17T18:17:00.002+08:00

Why did I say that... Firstly my boss not in the office as the selected people is having meeting for SAP... and for us its easiler to do our work.... OMG that like everyday peace... but I need to clear up my DOs and POs before account closing.... Gosh Alot of backlog to clear.... ya lah like 4 days never touch them... been doing the foreign currency DOs for SAP... craps....

Nothing much been going on except that they keep asking where is their treats... Pro and Con of winning the First prize... Pro, confident level up and you felt rewarded and achieved on your hard work but the con part is that people think I got money voucher and asking for treats... duh... its just NTUC voucher leh.... the voucher also I gave it to my parents for their household expenses and its hard to avoid this kind of "attention"... Haiz

I actually have another plan to join HP competition where you have to design your skin and send it to them... but the problem I encounter is that, I dun have the dumb software and I dun even know how to use it... REALLY BIG DISADVANTAGE LEH.... I should take up short courses on computering design... but the thing is that so EXPENSIVE!!!

Finally word: YeYe, you really suck big time!!! XD

New Skin... looking refresh

2008-11-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

Wahhh finally the new blog template already setup and I'm really excited about it... its been many years I wanted to make the change but never get to do it... gosh...

Family Day 2008

2008-11-16T19:00:00.003+08:00

@_@ sooo tired... the eve of the event we stay up till eleven plus. Finish up the board, paste up the words and the picture... gosh the hilarious part is when I want to go to toilet around that time... a cockroach appeared from no where and I scream at the top of my lungs.... hurried call Dilah.. then she pass the phone to Karls, he hurried to the scene and look out the cockroach in the toilet... suddenly it appeared from no where and just hit and curve out to hidding.... I scream again and so is Karls..... Orite thats it I aint going to pee now.... then want to go back, spotted another one and I have to run out of there. Karls ask me to wait for him but if you really freak out there no way I gonna stop.... =.= damn you stupid cockroach.

The next morning, got to wake up at 5am.... hummmm taking my sweet time to wake up, slowly call up Karls and Fadilah up..... So what I need a cold shower to perk up my morning.... WAHHHH SO COLD..... getting read with the make up... at first I want to put smoky eyes effect but then I already look tired and with dark shadow really make me look dead.. =.= end up overlap with purple shimmer... and I hate it cuz making me like drag doll... what the heck no time already have to fetch fadilah and go down to office....

Taxi driver listen up... what I hate it is either the taxi changing shift or they dun want to go to Tuas already giving fucking attitude to your morning.... most of them dun want to stop... what the hell...stupid. Once fetch Fadilah and reach the company, we head out to the canteen to get our breakfast... but seriously I have no appetite to eat... I prefer bed then food.... So sleep....

Chop Chop the registration corner is all pack up and really to rumble... for me, I been snapping photos all over the place and what is the most rewarding things is to see people happy faces... getting to know their families and get to interact the others. Here is the link to see the picture... I got trouble to upload the pic and stuff due to the problem....

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/photos.php?id=568242387

And guess what... I joined the drawing competition and gotten first place... OMG its like are you serious?!?! and got voucher 500 dollar from NTUC fair price. Fadilah gotten 2nd place NTUC voucher worth of 300 dollar, Shyan gotten NTUC voucher worth 200 dollar and the three contester gotten consolation prize of NTUC voucher worth 30 dollar.

The event ended at 1.30pm and we took the bus at 2pm to boon lay interchange. Did little shopping and still go for the soccer at Boon Lay Secondary School.... OMG so tiring... the practice ended at 5pm and then went home... most of my evening end up sleeping like a log.... gosh that explain the back ache I'm having.

I going crazy soon....

2008-11-13T21:53:00.004+08:00

Three days in the rows I been doing the foreign currency check and its BORING!!! By looking at it, gave me grave headaches... where to dig out the DO and PO from the monkey years... most of them is like in the archives.... don't asked me to go up there.... there like alot of uninvited creatures hidden.... =.= especially cockroaches.... GROSSS!!!!!

Family Day's event is around the corner and actually I didn't contributed much though... but for sure during the event need to take pictures... target as many happy faces as possible... gosh to imaging meeting up their families its kinda exciting tho.... and also abit shy too... lol who's know what they commented about me to them.... -.-

Anyway I got new skin template for my blogger... its in the process so gonna wait awhile okie.... its pretty awesome skin I should credit this person... LOL damn I forgot the name... but nevertheless really love the skin... with Reita from The Gazette on it... my first intention is to get the groups but the group skin isn't that great.

So cheers... Family Day's Celebration is on this coming Saturday, 9.30am till 1pm... there will be games, foods and tours around the company.... maybe next year we gonna have to host somewhere interesting.... cool

Wednesday.... Aint it mid of the week?!?!

2008-11-12T22:38:00.008+08:00

OMG... its Wednesday and I yet to finish that stupid search of the oversea currency that my logistic boss gave it to me yesterday. My boss did help out but I guess she help out and spotted alot of unorganized paper filing all over the place.... way to go Fiza for 'studying' the previous guy's work..

I'm been down with flu for almost a week and two days straight my head aching for searching thru mountains of file stacking on the table and floors. I havent updated my DOs and POs and the account is chasing me, furthermore its been slip off my mind to do tracking and updating the warranty board. Ok fair enough I should upgraded myself and be more proactive.... nevertheless she go and 'complain' to my supervisor.... 'dam dam dammmm' .... Ah heck care, put that one aside and focus on finding all the craps information my logistic boss wants.

After the 3pm break, another task given.... and this time the Manpower executive wants the pass to be ready for tomorrow morning... WHAT THE HECK NOW WHAT TIME ALREADY AND YOU WANTS IT TOMORROW?!?! craps lah... its like over 40 people and I need to create their pass and print it out?!? Gosh... along the way I doing, my eyes is starting to blurry and I can see starts and double... craps.... I am tired.... I still in the process of recovering and I still strain myself out... T_T ... GOD HAVE MERCY!!!

Tokio Hotel - Monsoon lyrics

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane

I've been waiting here so long
Another the moment seems to've come,
I see the dark clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

A half moon's fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Hey! Hey!

I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

November.... its getting hot in here....

2008-11-02T22:20:00.002+08:00

Wahhh I really never bother to update my blog... I must religiously updated it and furthermore there will be changes in my blog... only currently I don't have the energy to think and to spice up the skin.... I do want some changes before my bday... let just say its a treat to my readers... lol.

What I been up to for these few months??? well September is fasting month and guess what, now my company name have change from Total Automation Pte Ltd to Wartsila Automation Services Singapore Pte Ltd.... if you are receptionist, try to pronounce that everyday... no doubt that your tongue will jam! I can remember the first day of that month is the start of the fasting month and I like spiritually low and all my alerts is cut to half... gosh over the counter is pretty crowded and chaotic... got mix up and got scolding and stuff... its part of the test during the fasting month and also at Malay Village incident... really if I have gun in my hand I already shot him dead. How suddenly he just disappeared without telling us... what frustrated is when I tried to call he didn't pick up but when my god father called he answer... what the hell... and till then I given him cold treatment over the month but now I just talk to him but not like last time when I more nicer to him... furthermore he chasing another gal.... GOOD LUCK sucker...

During Hari Raya not many houses managed to visit but I did visit my colleagues and its cool tho. Do miss visiting my relatives, friends etc... its was October and I really tied up with the 3rd quarter reports. Plus with the HAMs keppel cards and organize the seminar. Guess what the seminar fall on the account closing and its really causes me to hit panic button.

Pretty much activities coming up pretty soon. Furthermore there will be Family Day on the 15th of November and I'm in charge of Halal Chinese food... where to find it with the budget of $8-$10 per head and cater for 400 people... ok that not so bad but I mean if to considered the taste bud... its gonna be pretty challenging. And drawing competition with themes Energy, Environment and Economic... Now that is really a challenge.

June.... Busy liao

2008-06-22T22:36:00.022+08:00

Gosh its like half of the year have gone and where did i go to?

Alot of event happening like for example the company recreation club have success three event the last was bowling tournament and its was fun. Alot of laughter and fun. Really cant descript the content of the heart that time... abit disappointed that my good friend and my god father cant make it but thank God I really had a blast with the panel bay guys came down and play altho they claim its their first time... gosh and uncle David who do make it despite the busy schedule, congrats to the winner who will advance to the ASMI tournament....

Speaking of Tournament there will be another Soccer tournament coming up with the Wartsila a friendly match. The guy they really pumping to train hard and have lady luck on their side ( I am not a lady luck but more to Vulgar lady... XD). Anyway if can during that event I personally gonna get rented car and drove us all to Tampinese Stadium.... Major pain the yesterday event was supposely be the training but due to low respond afew turn up. Imaging I have to carry a carton of mineral + three soccer balls + etc... nt to complain or to bring it up but its really overwhelming till after the practise I went home ate two chicken pie and milk and straight to bed without bath and watsoever till this morning my throat is itch and my body is stink... gosh really tired.

Then like last mth went back to my mum village... its like three year nv go back and its feel good and weird at the same time to come back. Weird is that everyone have moved out (people ard my age) and do miss the old time when the elderly was around... really bring out the atmophere to come back often. Where families gather together and us cousin and niece and nephew hang out together and play around... really miss that piece of memories.

Haiz this month is stock check again and also the first day of the month its SAP.... oooorrrrgggghhhhh that is the stress period of my life.... sometime I do asked myself do I perform really good, do i achieved what I want, am I up to my standard ( dun nid to ask if I up to my boss standard as I-Dun-Think-So up to her standard) if i ever gonna push myself further will I break down again? Well guess I have to tap that hidden talent of mine to see how far can I go.

GOsh felt like ages

2008-02-16T20:41:00.002+08:00

Ya since I already started working in new company... I like OMG all my time is flying off way too fast without me to absorb. Gosh come to think 2007, I finally pass my driving lesson, making a lot of new colleagues and making new friends, having different experiences in working life and breakups... really need to thank my friends who knows about it and also thank to the guy who breaking my hearts cuz from there I really learn to be more independent and losing my feelings to fall in love again.... but maybe that day will come but not now. Because I already started to straight up my life to be more resourceful, reliable and proactive in every decision making I gonna set.

Like my new year resolution I was planning to take bike this year but unexpectedly I gonna further my studies and save up to pay the fees and get new lappy.... lol And also this year gonna go back to village and meet up with my dears relative... gosh I really miss them and NASI KANDAR....

Let side track what had happen to my life lately after the super last entries, Current I am working at Total Automation Pte Ltd which is located at Tuas but very sooner or later which I not pretty sure gonna change to Wartilsa Automation…. Pretty impressive I suppose. Well it’s more to America kind of working environment so must be challenging but knowing a lot of polities in the company are norm.

People here are really nice and friendly too… well there are some who are shy… hey dun asked me you should know me I really loud and too open. First ever person I get to know is Fadila from HR department lol a.k.a sister…. Our character is really alike but to spot the different is really easy… one is lady like and another one is more to not so lady like (u guess it). In Acounts department, Sales and Service…Then get to know the stores people, Aldwin who taught me most of the paper work in the first week days, Kway Zin is the supervisor who I mistakenly as the older guy (gomen if these few day we both keep on arguing and end up u nt talking to me), Aung is my Burmese brother, Thiha is the part time guy but he already left due to contract already expired, Bernard the Senior supervisor, Patricia is my Store Manager, Johari who resign jus as I came in… Sam the driver… Martin is with us for 3 day then he ciao… diaoz… then our Mr Peter Poon… hohoho… and lastly Ah Heng.. driver cum storekeeper (like real). I tell you if I carry on writing people names my head gonna burst…. Service side… Min Thien… he really damn friendly one and if dunno stuff can asked when he show the drafting. Nyi Nyi Aung is my another brother, Zaw Zaw the cicak man… lol he funny tho… got some of the names I forgot like but most is in Min Thien side there… really most of them nice to chat… then panel bay guy the first I get to know is Ye Ye… ya at first I called him Xiao Di cuz thinking he way too young from me but end up he is like few weeks younger than me…. (Is it déjàvu… like Gary and me lah weeks different), Karls… also a year younger than me but OMG he ah really…. Erm what is that words again… Kelama… damn shy boy liao OMG really got this type of guys in this very time… very seldom seen. And some of the panel bay people who I really dun get the name… (I not good in memories people name but really good in recalling people face…hohoho)...

Better stop till here or nt I can create a story book sooner or later....

What to write???

2007-10-20T23:21:00.001+08:00

Ya yesterday was my last service to North West CDC... nope it not because I be kick out or contract ended but I finally secured perm job. Yahoooo!!! I will be starting working on the 22nd at Tuas as Store Assistant... It might sound like guys job and those who lower education lvl job but no not that what you think.... It is actually more responsibility and challenging job... well they paid my qualification level tho.... ya the working hours is that you got to get up early to get the transport at Jurong Point.

Lately doing too much data entry really hurts my eyes till I have to went for the eye check up and guess that my eye really have problem since I been experience dryness and bluring vision. The optical lady told that its nt that bad but I can choose to wear or nt to wear spect... gosh I really need to look closer at the screen. My silly supervisor say you lah go stare at the screen so close =.= fine! fine! my fault.

Gosh I'll miss Kalai as this wk is my last wk and he will be going North West CDC like end of the month. Stupid Kalai now I really got no chance to go back and bully him lor.... idiot... but since he say he got his reason then ok lor what to do... really South West CDC gonna be a ghost town... all the fun people like Pepsi, Nadia, Rufus and soon David gonna leave.... boring.... But before I left, I did wrotre to Kalai a letter and pass to my supervisor =.= I hope he dun forget about it or I personally suan him till jialat.

Well the work is Jialat as need to sit there and hit the target 40 file or applications which I dunno but then some people I get to noe really nice..... Like the counter people, Team Leader, Supervisor -.-" ( this one really chatter box till swt) and the payment people and some temp staff people I make friends with lol... but then the last day my supervisor treat me lunch. Then end up in toilet having stomache... kaoz!!

Now I am wondering how will my new place be? will the people there friendly or opposite?? can I take up the challenge and make the mistake... gosh now Its that I both excited and worried at same time... sob sob

Haiz life must go on although I already forgot Daidai...even not totally... but he must have forgotten me as now he is happily with another gal... swt... this is what happen thinking that he is the nice guy so-call prefect one.... wahhhh I shouldnt thinking about him now..... To Hell With Him!!!

Finally Computer Ressurate... Tales of Pirates

2007-10-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

Finally I got my computer really big thanks to sambal chicken... steven... lol... without him I really cant do nuts about getting the computer in the cheaper price lol. Ya got to try and pinch my cheek now to check it out. Current working place is at North West CDC... erm really different management from South West tho.... *take me take me* but then ok lah I do nid the change of environment. But the sian part... total data entry... gosh I keep dooze of infront of the computer but the stress part is tat i sat beside the manager.... more dangerous.

Well I have actively finding job so I hope before the end of the year I must get perm job... shag leh I dun get any benefit and good pay,.... stupid agency. WHY!!!! But I do wish to cont study tho... but I am still unsure what courses to take... Jialat

Oh ya I have heard The Gazette new album tho.... I noe they have release it like quite sometime but then its really totally alot of screamo and they have increase english volcab.. there a few of songs writing and sang in english... something different tho but I gave them two thumbs up for the effort and nicely grammar arrangement.

BURIAL APPLICANT

Hello, my dear, kill me, gently.
A burned body doesn't leave you.
sukuenai to nageku nara shi sae mita darou?
sono kokyuu no zaratsuki wa gien totorenai ka?

furishikiru [kishimu ne] ni furue ga yamanu
nou de rikaishi tsuzukeru itami ni zetsuen wo

Die for me...,you can't save it.
Is it wrong? kotaete misete
hora yura yura yura to sono me yurashite
nagasu namida ni uso wa nai to
My hand...,eyes...,mind..., and breath.
saigo ni nokoru no wa yake tadarete kusari hateta kiroku to
ko mo sukuenu sangai

torimidasu hishatai no kage zouo to kyoufu wa sakebi atte
hagare ochita aijou ni naze kono karada made kuchihateru
akaku warau yami no naka de i wo haku(tsuku) tabi ni koboreta
sukui you no nai kotoba wa sono [zouo] to yoku niteiru

furishikiru [kishimu ne] ni furue ga yamanu
nou de rikaishi tsuzukeru itami ni zetsuen wo

Hello, my dear, kill me, gently.
A burned body doesn't leave you.
ubugoe to himei shiru mimi ni negai wo to
doke fukaki soko edouka douka sono uramu me ni utsurikomanu you ni shizumete
fukaku... nidoto kono mi ni furenu you
soshite warau sono ibitsuna omoide mo
Forget me..., you can't save it.
Is it wrong? kotaete misete

hora yura yura yura to sono me yurashite nagasu namida ga subete uso to
My hand...,eyes...,mind..., and breath.
saigo no okizari wa yake tadarete kusari hateta kiroku to
ko mo aisenu yurikago

AGONY

You said to me so. "Please love until dying."
For what do you hope to me? Is it the hopeless last scene?
Answer...I don't want to die.
DA DON VIDIVI DA DON AGAIN DA DON VIDIVI DA DON
The scream of insomnia. Is the next my turn?
What is a lethal weapon?

Oh shit! It was done too much. Pardon me...Don't come near me.

Did you really love me heartilly? Can you really call that love?
Answer...I don't want to die.
DA DON VIDIVI DA DON again DA DON VIDIVI DA DON
The scream of insomnia. Is the next my turn?

Oh shit! It was done too much. Pardon me...Don't come near me.

Lethal weapon is lip. Your affection rape me.

Let's sing to you again.
This is the last copulation.
Why can't you understand it?
Can't you hear my shout?
Again...Until hate goes away.
Don't touch me! Don't touch heart! Don't show that face!
I don't want to die.

Did you really love me heartilly? Can you really call that love?
Answer...I don't want to die.
DA DON VIDIVI DA DON again DA DON VIDIVI DA DON
The scream of insomnia. Is the next my turn?

Oh shit! It was done too much. Pardon me...Don't come near me.
This is the last copulation.
Why can't you understand it?
Can't you hear my shout?
Again...Until hate goes away.
Don't touch me! Don't touch heart! Don't show that face!
I don't want to die.

This is the last copulation.
Why can't you understand it?
Can't you hear my shout?
Again...Until hate goes away.
Don't touch me! Don't touch heart! Don't show that face!
I don't want to die.

Calm Envy
The Gazette

furishikiru ame no ne ni shizumi sou na
sono yakusoku wa dare no yume de dare no tame no yume darou

"I want to see all of you." "I want to love all of you."
douka shiteru ne

tsunagu te to gyaku no te ni wa itsumo shiranai kaori ga shiteru
"I want to see all of you." "I want to love all of you."
iki wa chan to dekiteru no ni kuzure sou ni naru

kotoba yori mo fukaku aishite kure nara
me no mae ne iru anata dake wo shinjite ikeru
fui ni miseta kako ni fureru tabi ni moroku
uzumetsukusenai kuuhaku ni namida ukabe

yasuragi ni amaete te mo tonari no anata ga watashi no naka kara togire sou ni naru
"I want to see all of you." "I want to love all of you."
kotae wa emi ni obore
"You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost."
kakikesenai hodo kakaeteru

anata ni nageta kotoba mo aishite kureru nara
me no mae ne iru anata dake wo shinjite ikeru
fui ni miseta kako ni fureru tabi ni itamu
watashi no inai kuuhaku made aishitai
kizukarenai you ni namida wa nuguu kara
kono ijou watashi no mae de warawanaide

"sayonara" wo kakusu futari ja naku
"sayonara" wo naku futari de itai
omoikaesu yori wasurete hoshii
soshite watashi wo kuuhaku ni oite
mou sugita hibi wo ottarishinaide

mou kore ijou oite ikanaide
"semete..."
sayonara wo nigiri nemuru watashi no
honokana netsu wo tabako no you ni keshite

kaeranai hibi wo aishita hito yo

Finally its over

2007-08-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

Well guess what... I have gone over my daidai... well its that he have someone special so that what he told me about "special someone" and put her picture on the msn display pic. I dun think ever once he put my pic in his, I doubt about it. So well at least this time around I dun shred any tears for him. I done with crying and I done waiting for him. To think to wait for him... Well I willing to back out of this and I have not look back. To think other "admirer" of mine willing to get mic and webcam jus to chat with me where else him. Hopeless. To think that he thinks I am mentally weak because of just asking other people for their optional and cant decided for myself. He is wrong. I not weak like what he thinks. I maybe insecure certain things but I not defendless. I might be slow and nagging but I focus and work hard for it. I never back down without a fight. That is me! That is who I really am inside. He might be weak in love but he never give a chance and open up to me well that his loss. I maybe broken but with the support of family and friends I nv loss. I am who I am...

30 seconds to Mars - The Kill lyrics

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)

(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me

Friday the 13th.... Get the black cat and place infront of the office..

2007-07-13T12:00:00.000+08:00

Gosh its friday the 13th and the sway part is that there alot of client... OK people for now on I gonna pounder all my feeling, anger, frustation and sadness in this blog cuz since I already causes the one as shoulder to cry on. Its really nv meant to be that way but then again we as the gal love to complain so what give??? That why there call rumors and gossip is created. And did you know men die faster then women.... reason is because woman they pour all their problem out where else the men they kept it to themselve which sooner or later will eat them up. So guy sorry we cant change the habits but if you really not interested to listen to our complain then its fine with us. That why gal outing is soooo important.. and that is the time for us to bitch around... ^_^ who cares.. hehe...

Well I really happy now that I can pour out all the pain which bolt up in my heart and my thoughs. Now really felt so light. Sorry Daidai really I cant change much and I cant change for other people too. Its either accept them as who they are or Bye! Bye! Bye!

Should I or Shoudn't I?!?!

2007-06-14T09:55:00.000+08:00

I dunno whether to pursuit my studies and take Degree. Dispite the fact that one of the factor is I cant find the Job which co-related to my studies and if I work in other field they will question "Will you wasted on what you study?" If there is entertainment industry widely blooming in Singapore then I already heading there and taking up Sound Engineering but its the other way. I'm planning to take up Computer Engineering... Ya I know that I not good in programming but I would like to challenge myself to the next level and get my ass out of the comfort zone. But I aint going into Marketing, Finance, Business or anything to do with it... =.= really I dont have any hope in that dept. But I wont going into NTU, NUS, SMU nor SIM.... maybe going to PSB Academy or MDIS... =.= really costly which I have those system like in American where the rich family "adopt the student in the collegue and they pay their education but after they graduate and got the job they will have to pay back." Now the CPF wanna me to pay back my dad where else I still hopeless. GOsh!!!

Me and him we still talking term but in delicated measured. I wonder if I am paranoid. I just give him space and as for me I have my life. Maybe someday I'll wake up, see how useless most of the worries have been and stop letting others hold me back. Well i got this qoute from this inspiration poster which I paste it in the office at my desk area. So whenever feeling kinda down and despair, these words is powerful enuf to make me think. Move forward and never look back as history will be history, future will be coming and now stand firm for present.

Where am I??

2007-06-04T11:30:00.000+08:00

The feeling is lost little by little I am stare directly heaven above. I am soo long and confused. One side of me wanna to let things fall into places where else another wanna to know the outcome. The outcome I already know what is it. If I asked the possibilities of the answer will still be the same. Does he really love me as Love or Like?!?! Two different spelling and two different meaning. I wish I can read his mind but knowing his character, I must have really big patient and tolerance. I mustn't be selfish but sometime giving him in alot meaning I lost my place to be with him. I want to be with him but in reality he don't like the idea of the long distant relationship. I still waiting for the day to come when either one of us would come down and visit each other. But if we meet with there be a difference or be the same. Will there be the next revolution from this relationship. Where am I?? You are my first and the Only One. If I let you go, will you come back to me?? I will let you go but I will be by myself. My heart wont be that easily to forget....

Break up songs?!!?

2007-04-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

When I heard this song I have create a scence in my head what if This is the last time I gonna see my DaiDai?!?! what if we really not meant to be together?!?! How should I say to him on my last departed?? LOL well I not in any breaking up situation tho. Because last nite on the radio 987FM there is a topic of the breaking up situation and how you go over it. So maybe here is a few tips which may or may not help. Hey I not Miss Love Doctor.

After the breakup aftermath...

1. Dun wind up and calling him/her to patch back together again. Believe me it spell disaster. See who is the one who asked the quits. If you the one who asked for the quits, dun ever EVER go back how much he begs. And if he dump you and want you back, say so long and good bye to him. We aint his/her toys when he/her grew tired he/her will dump one side and get another new toy.

Like malay quote: Once spit never lick it back (sorry its really direct translation so it might sound abit disgusting.)

2. Called your friends up. If you really lost in touch, called them back and apologise for the long absent. And make plans for meeting. Go out have fun and NEVER stay at home alone and pound over split milk. Trust me maybe he/she must be happily off with their life.

3. Dun go into your fridge and digging those stuff which you might regard later like chocolate, Ice cream and stuff... those stuff will go to your ass and for guys hummm I dunno whether that will go?!?! But serious will it worth it for you to go into depression and start to find comfort in food and grow side way?!?! I dun think so.... Get up on your feet and go Karaok and sing till your lungs hurts... at least that to let it out from inside.... does that felt good O_O...

4. Do stuff which you never get to do by urself, get to fix your stuff around the house, learn new things, new hobbies and cleaning up ur closet which you think reminded of them... but do it civilise way.... like give away to people or donate to charity instead of contibuted more rubbish to environment. Surely that will be feel good. If your ex asked it back, then you can say oh you did a good deed by gave away. Well trust me I sure they got nothing to say after that... XD

Only One Lyrics
Artist(Band):Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

(Music Intro)

Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only one
My only one(x3)
You are my only my only one

Alice Nine singles

2007-03-23T10:59:00.000+08:00

Must be a busy year for Alice Nine since they current had 2 single coming out. One of them is Jewels with Type A which consist of two songs Jewels and Rosario plus with the Jewels Music clip in DVD.

Jewels Type B is consist of 3 songs Jewels, Rosario and "13". Both will be release on the 21/03/2007.

Next up coming maxi single is WHITE PRAYER which also two different cds which one of them will contain 2 song and the video clip, White Prayer, ストレイキャットand White Prayer music clip in DVD and another cd will be 3 songs with White Prayer, ストレイキャット and The Last Empire. Both of the CDs will be in store on 06/06/2007.

If you are Alice Nine fan or you are those like me who like to listen to random jrock band, this is the band which must never overlook them. Why do I say that? go to their website which have the sample of the single and you will know what I mean. Cuz like I say dun take my words for it. But I will spend my money on this single as it is too good to be miss.
http://www.pscompany.co.jp/alicenine/
(Information gather from pscompany)

Inform About Gazette, Moi dix Mois and Kagrra album.

2007-03-22T12:25:00.000+08:00

The Gazette will be releasing a new full length album, STACKED RUBBISH , on July 4th of this year which will come with two versions; a limited edition which will feature a DVD and a regular edition. The CD will be accompanied by a promotional tour [STACKED RUBBISH] Pulse Wriggling to Black, which will start on July 15th and end on September 9th.

http://www.pscompany.co.jp/gazette/

DIXANADU is the fourth full album by Moi dix Mois in nearly two and a half years. This album is set to be released on March 28th, 2007. What I love the fact when I went into the website when u click on release there is the short clip demo of their song. Its sound really haunting melody but in the same time the feeling of in another world. Kinda those magical, dark but same time beautiful. Its like back in the Malica Mizer period but this is way better. So ITS a MUST HAVE album.

http://midi-nette.com/mdm/release-english.htm

My opinion on Kagrra new album -Shizuku- , go to their website http://www.pscompany.co.jp/kagrra,/ and listen to the song sample. Its really breath taking and the Japanese musical is still intact. I would say that their this album is somehow grew mature in the sense of melody and vocal. But dun take my words for it. Check out this guy journal, he's music review is good so do check it out.
http://www.tokidokijournal.com/article.php?id=673

Shizuku (雫-shizuku-) (2007/02/14)
Utakata (うたかた)
Sayounara (さようなら)
Kaze (風)
Ishin (維新)
Hakai (破戒)
Sadame no Ito (運命の糸)
'Sakebi' (「叫び」)
Kazunda Fuyu no Mukou ni... (霞んだ冬の向こうに、、、)
Shizuku (雫)

Lyrics.... Gazette Single "Hyena" (07/02 OUT)

2007-03-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

Ya since I kinda lazy to update my blog due to some busy schedule and stuff and I keep reading other people blog like the Taiwanese Idol who acted in Hua Yang Shao Nian Shao Nu in Japanese Manga means Hanazakari no Kimitachi e (花ざかりの君たちへ For You in Full Blossoms. I'm not gonna example the whole story is about what since there alot of information is expose in the website... just go to the Google and type it out Hana Kimi and the whole lot of list will come out. But I can say if you wanna to have a laugh can watch them... the DVD is out in store. But subtitle is in chinese so to non chinese I suggest go to youtube as they have the subtitle english version. But seriously I find that Wu Chun when come to the shocking or the funny expression part he abit cramp. It doesnt convince me that the situation is like "shocking" kind. But he do need to work on expression part. But Jiro, he did managed to make the sence really convincing. But neverthless its my opinion and sometime opinion is a good way to improve. XD

Orite come back to my original quest, here to review is the Gazette Single. Gosh their current single really take a new breath and turns as its mature but in the same time refreshing. Its still have the screamo but still relax to listen to. Ruki wrote lyrics for all the single and for this time around he make the effort to wrote english and japanese. But I still cant figure out on what he was singing until I get hold on the lyrics. I serious think he need to voice out the english part clearer. But neverthless its really good effort and I love all the songs.

GAZETTE HYENA LYRICS

Lyrics: Ruki
Music: Gazette

Ugly acting and song
Odori ga heta Na Handsome
Your copulation is dirtier than money
Unprincipled strategist
Ranyou middle aged spread
Buraunkan No sumi of tengu kibun its

Please disappear because it is year eyesore
Judgement now

You were born from the mouth?
Fushiana nor uru kobi shika nai
Your copulation is dirtier than money
Unprincipled strategist
Ranyou middle aged spread
Han kyouran Na gaki ha bishonure its

Please disappear because it is year eyesore
It fails together yew going atraight

Naked Curtain of wine red shikibetsu deki
Nagasa reru mama odoru yume
Sayuu nor narau ibitsu Masquerade

Kazare Ba nabiku have nor
Oboreru ima No kimi nor
Muragaru No ha isshun No kyoumei
Onshitsu kuzure No Prince
Koutoubu nor shanderia
Sutare your sound system kyoumei ha Hyena

You were born from the mouth?
Fushiana nor uru kobi shika nai
Your copulation is dirtier than money
Unprincipled strategist
Ranyou middle aged spread
Han kyouran Na gaki ha bishonure its

Please disappear because it is year eyesore
It fails together yew going atraight

Kimi No kao nor sai your koe ha
Risou kasane kai korosu yo
Ani Na tomare tomasu No yume

Nani iru No namida of
Nani iru No kotoba of
Nuritsubuse Ba sound system kao of I rareru
Mie sugi your kisuato
Atae sugi your uso nor
Unubore your mama kuchi you ku yo will hora

Kazare Ba nabiku have nor
Oboreru ima No kimi nor
Muragaru No ha isshun No kyoumei
Onshitsu kuzure No Prince
Koutoubu nor shanderia
Sutare your sound system kyoumei ha Hyena

GAZETTE CHIZURU LYRICS

Lyrics: Ruki
Music: Gazette

Anata No tegami nor ua yome naiji dake
Sweet-sop sound system kuchi will kara kika you hoshii

Nare nai shirou ua nigate toiki SAE hibiku
Sora No iro SAE shire tared sukuwa reru noni
Naked Umaku deki kokyuu Mo itsuka wasure tai
Penny negaeru tsuyo SAE Mo will hikara nor so wo Drei

Utsu fuses No ashita ima doryu tsutau sugi nor
Rare Hau nani nor karamase your Restraint
*Even the mind seems to sleep*
Koheru atta netsu ha totemo natsukashiku yasashi
Mourou No hazama semi your kage danshoku No yume

Anata nor utsuru watashi No me ga
Anata O miushinau hi ga kitte Mo
Kono me nor yakitsui you kureteru
Ki more hi No hibi to
Anata wa tsure you ika nai of

Nijimu shiro ga yureru
Kotoba Mo wasure penny
Namida ua nagare you doko ue yuku No
Watashi No namae O younde
Kudakeru will kurai idai you
Kore ijou ushinau No ha kowai

*Anata ua doko de*
Watashi No koto utatte iru No
Mimi O sumashi you Mo hibiku No ua fuate Na kodou
Kuro ua ketatatsu No netsu ga omoidase nai
Mourou No hazama semi your No ua kanshoku No ima

Senba No totemo chiisana anata No negai nor yorisotte
Egao Mo kaese zu neither tada toiki O kazoete ita kioku No saigo nor?
Anata No koe ga kikoe you subete O nakushi your asa
Naked Hitotsu nor nare futari

GAZETTE DEFECTIVE TRAGEDY LYRICS

Lyrics: Ruki
Music: Gazette

Plastic case no anji suicide music
Mukizu no Red Line ni gouhou no Psycho
'Shikou ha mohou teki ni yamu sou frenzy ni tokekomu Backbone'
Melancholy and razor play
'Sou sa seru no ha igan da Backbone'

Plastic case no anji suicide music
Mukizu no Red Line ni gouhou no Psycho
'Shikou ha mohou teki ni yamu sou frenzy ni tokekomu Backbone'
Melancholy and razor play
'Sou sa seru no ha igan da Backbone'

Toge darake no cless feeling member tehoric
Iyasu kurayami ha my place
Kake ta ka de kaku
Sukui you no nai nise kuchi ni
Kotoba sae wasure sou da ne
Unstable hobby

It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and abnormal shudder
It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and tenacity of purpose
It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and abnormal shudder
It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and tenacity of purpose

Sad razor play
So cold day
Sad razor play

Scream yourself
Drain yourself
Without forget to yearn for liberty
Scream yourself
Scream your pain
Without concealing the selves

Mezame mi ta aka de kimi o chikaku kanjiru

Kurikaesu oto to mi tsubushi ta peeji
Kirisai ta hyoujou ni fukaku KISS
'aijou o mekakushi chikau isshou mazara nu tabi ni shitsubou'
Melancholy and razor play
Sou, mazara nu to be ?

Slow cold rain
Kasaneru negai mo
Slow cold rain
Kodoku ni toke te iku
Kono te kara hanare nai de
Chikaku kanji te ta no ha kitto
Shijou no kimi ga subete datta kara ne
Slow cold rain
It goes along in the cheek.

It is not possible to escape.

Plastic case no anji suicide music
Mukizu no Red Line ni gouhou no Psycho
'Shikou ha mohou teki ni yamu sou frenzy ni tokekomu Backbone'
Melancholy and razor play
'Sou sa se ta no ha igan da Backbone'

Negae nu mirai ni negau ano hi o ?
Kimi ni chikatta isshou ha isshun de ?
Nozoma nu henka ni oshitsuke ta risou
Ochiro to sae negatta
Unstable idea

It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and abnormal shudder
It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and tenacity of purpose
It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and abnormal shudder
It gnaws at your brain
Envy mind and tenacity of purpose

Sad razor play
So cold day
Sad razor play

Scream yourself
Drain yourself
Without forget to yearn for liberty
Scream yourself
Scream your pain
Without concealing the selves

Nobase nu kono te to fumidase nu ashi to
Ushinai ha shikaku no akari mette oboru

2 attempt and Failed...

2007-02-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

AIYOHHHHHHHH..... Fail again test... felt confident enough to pass it.... Jialat how siakkkkk... well current havent book yet the test.... need to relax my head, I think if put on the weight machine, surely gonna be about 100kg... alot of stuff in my mind and haiz I think I have underestimate about the-2nd-chance-is-sure-pass kinda thinkin.... T_T... Sian now I really need to change of plan of my divide of saving money to go take another dip in Computer Engineering, My Dad's CPF and house expense... T_T the worst part I yet to get the proper job... Where am I going??

Yup to all you havent see my baby niece here is some of the picture took... I think my hp got problem cuz the pixel kinda suck....

Ok everyone here to introduct into the family is Qurratu Ain and born in KK Hospital @ Thursday, 15th Feburary 2007, 1.28pm..... she is kinda tiny at the moment as she weight about 2....something kg.... well dun asked me why i dun take picture with her.... T_T i think i will take when she little bit bigger orite... now if you see also like fragile....

LOL HAPPY Belated New Year.... XD

2007-01-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

HAHA I was suppose to do the blog at the eve of new year and now already 2nd wk of Janunary now then want to say Happy New Year... WAHahahha... well at least better to say now then really late rite. So wat I have been up to... hummm... I have celebrate a quite b'day last, then Saddam Hussin already hang on the 30th or the 31st of December 2006, then busy with Hari Raya Haji and still working in German Centre... I did went for my first interview of the new year which I dun think gonna get it again and job hunt before my this contract is ended. Ok basically wat is my new year resolution??? hummm I aim to get into jeans size 30, hopefully pass my driving and obtain a license by this year, be a good aunty for my niece, be more holy and go to mosque, try to get DaiDai to be online as much as I can and hummm I think that about it. LOL

Haiz today he was online but never ever bother to be the first to say hi to me.... wonder sometime what the hell he doing... RO ing... maybe but I truthly miss the old time were we ACTUALLY communicate with each other and he took the time and patient with me. Hummm even now we online he will be bz doing other things and like I msg him really have to wait. If he wanna to go off he will hurry say goodnite then offline without getting me say something. But I find that I'm doing the talking and its getting frustated... I want to spice things up I dun want it to die half way.

Haiz I dunno where went wrong. Is he bored with me? Its like a kitten who wanna to play with its master but the master is busy and the kitten felt neglated and have to find something else to fill in its time. Ya, after sometime he nv online, I really misses him alot then start wondering what happen to him, whether he ok or nt. When he online I was so relieve to see him but then the problem with him is that he wont like to share problem with me -_-"".... then after awhile he will go MIA cuz he go play RO... then left me strained here waiting.... after he finish played he will talk to me awhile then offline to sleep...

Haiz its not i want to control him or wat... I do let him have his space and let him do his thing, but sometime felt abit neglated... ya lah like ages nv see him then you want to do catching up and talk to him... even email also I seldom received. The last one is my ecard for my b'day... i still kept the last b'day one too. Cuz the feeling is that you looking forward to received something and once you got it you felt happy and content. T_T Gosh I truthly feeling sad and empty now.

Stresssss.... Sakit Kepala

2006-12-15T21:27:00.000+08:00

SO I been working in tat company for about 2mth and my head hurts for reading his logistic english...kaoz... to think my english is suck. Anyway X,mas is here and tat to tell that my b'day is around the corner...but wat I want?!?! Maybe DaiDai pop out of my b'day present...haha tat is toooo ambitions... I still want my dream to go oversea and study there.... the place is Japan... why?... well I find that their technology is advance and they have creative ideas of innovating equipment around us to be user friendly. I do want to make a differents. Who knows!

Hari Raya Picture is up and ready.

2006-11-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

OMG its 2mth nv updated Gosh surely there alot of stuff for me to tell liao... But ytd event was a blast and I really really enjoy meeting you guys.. hehe although I get tease alot... haizzz. Nvm lor since ages nv see me BUT only once I let u all tease me hor... Anyway supposely to meet up at Fardly's place at 3pm but due to weather condition there be a delays as some of them ride bike and ya cant do much too since the weather. End up we meet up at 5pm like that... Got to appologise Fairuzas cuz I end up gave him the wrong address wahhahah I gave him the wrong block number and he went there and asked where is Fardly house then I said its at the first floor then he say where got house at first floor. Then I like OMG wrong place. :X jialat sure he suan me till I sian. Orite cut the story short, so rite bout now there Azlina, Fairuzas, Riduan and his wife, Alfiyan, Ruzaini and his gf. Ard 6 plus we went off to Cikgu Sunari's house and meet up with Suelastri and Kazuo.. But then rite, Cikgu Sunari nt at home... -_-"" great now wat?!?! So as plan we go to Fairuzas house... Gosh love his house concept all wood... my sis surely gonna love the house XD. Then next to my house, Suelastri, Cikgu Yaya, Ruzaini, Kazuo and lastly Riduan.... So sori to Riduan I dun have the oppourity to go visit his new home but nvm if wanna to have BBQ or wat jus give a call and we all will come and set up the BBQ pit there... *since woodland sheng song is over there too* whahahah....

I was working at HDB hub as Temp Staff at CDC central Singapore... Well over there I get to some nice ppl and also the two "wolf" wahahah that one will be Wei Hsiang and Luke lor... wahhh they macam small brother like tat although someone dun want to admit it *look at Wei Hisang* Mirah, my supervisor really happy go luck gal hehe, then get to know Susan in the short while and also Jiawei and her bf...XD paiseh forgot his name again but I noe is Sam but tat is his chinese surname... tat wat he said lah. But in the new work environment at JE is kinda all for yourself and I kinda bored. Wat to expected its American company... i guess so but I have to get myself mentally prepair for this kinda of situation and how am I gonna adapt it... gosh...

Saturday..... Shag

2006-09-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

Lol ytd hang out is quite... hilarious... i keep on laughing till my whole head hurts
XD.. seriously if got the combination of Jonathan, Wen Chang, Ah Ben's friend Kelvin and Ah Ben... sure there alot of commerical. Ya its start up with the food at the Lucky plaza... diaoz Ya its cheap but food stinks! I noe that Wen Chang is the food critic and the carrot cake he havent finish.... cfm nt nice one... plus I order fried kwey tiao and popiah... the kwey tiao okok but the ham isnt cooked and the popiah taste like shit... I end up nt finish up the food. Basically nothing much onli that the guys they shopping for clothes and perfume for a birthday gal... Xiao Bai and Wen Chang's Friend... man they really suck in choosing the nice smell... I help to pick the perfume which is mild, sweet yet got the punch. I hope tat b'day gal really like the perfume cuz i no idea actually.....

The the nite is raining in Orchard road.... actually its kind of nice to see raining in the town area... cuz making the lights sparkily and the atmophere kinda claim and relax. Then when the heavily rain subsize we rush out to Cineleaisure and see if got any nice movie to watch. ~_~ nvless there nothng much to watch plus its really kinda late for the show and purchase the ticket. So end up window shopping.

Then today supposely to go out again but i too shag plus I basically broke... I nid to find a 2nd job to support myself and get to go oversea trip with Shy Yun and Kim... if possible... we were planning to go to terranggun

Crash and Burn, Stand Up and Move On...

2006-09-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

Ya I get burn and ages nv update. My work at the CPF isnt tat good cuz i got terminated, reason is that " oh you arent good in this field" wat the hell is that? Then for wat u employed us in the first place. Aiyah in short rite its suck cuz the majority who they terminated is majority malay. Nvm I jus have to focus other thing like maybe advance up my plan to make the business. Well I did spend some of my money buying the beads... original plan is to do the wallet... but ya nid some captial to success the dream.

Haiz lately I feeling kinda... Isolated and emptyness, coldness and lonely.... in the outside ppl see me all laughing and all jolly happy but inside i really felt so hollow and so lost... hummm but its ok maybe i really did carry away with all these. I nid to pull myself out of the depression mode and look up to the sky and smile. Now I have start work part time at CDC toa payoh... in the mean time concentrated with driving and getting the job.

Finally Working

2006-07-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

Yeah you heard it, and I jus started this week actually... working as customer service at CPF board and its really eye opening for me. Lets nt go into detail part cuz I still new in this field and i got alot of improvement to make. Ya After I sign the contract for this job for 3mth, starhub called for an interview... wah liao shag... then another agency call up say got an interview at tuas with the perm job... wah lagi suay.... its like after i sign the contract everyone of the agency started to call up. T_T.... ok lah the job its like you nid to "give" the information reqired and then guide them if they nid any requires. But of course you tend to meet the difficult customer.... -_-|||

Its like been wks since I last spoken to DaiDai... T_T if i did chat with him its that he either slpy or in the rush... sometime I wonder am I too demanding to ask him to give attention to me or am I paranoid??? Ya I do miss chatting with him and Its that almost everyday I'm checking my email hoping that he would reply to me and at least I get a news from him... but I think after that incident things kinda "drifted" or something... I dunno maybe all in my head cuz thinking too much... I shouldnt let my feeling overcome my judgement... ok so our timing is different plus its his vacation and he working to pay the bills, nid time out with friends and family plus his computer got some problem ( even my lappy come out some weird noise like wanna to spoilt already T_T) so I nid to learn to be really patient and be alot of understanding...

Graduation Day... Finally No string Attach

2006-05-31T15:25:00.000+08:00

Finally Its Graduation Day Yesterday and the troublesome part is to wear something formal macam office like that... Then waste my money on the shirt T_T... its ok but I though I was gonna be late as the taxi was difficult to get in the more...perk hour mah... then nvm gotten the taxi... I think its my mum friend or relative then he chatting till dunno go where and I'm already LATE... Lucky Lavania called or not he will dill dally take his time to reach the UCC..

When reach the place gotten to register and meet up with Juliet Kang before went in the seat... I sat beside Rui Sheng.. we were sitting according to the repectivy seated place. Okok Cut to the chase... the mao fun part is to wear the scarf ard the neck making me look funny.... -_- tat y during the secondary I hate wearing the school tie.

The funny part when I went up the stage they clap so loudly macam popular then I heard someone say "Fiza, I Love U"... OMG so paiseh liao oO.Oo... when get back to the seat I asked who is it... some say Deva then who say its Izuan... *Blur* When time to eat....Happy to see sushi... wahhaha then taking the picture also bring sushi all over whahaha....

This is the Picture took with Joanne...she is my music appreaciation team member...

From the top left: Tan Jie Yip, Deshan, Vincent Toothy, me and Lavania... at the bottom rite is Bruces, Yao Kai, Xiao Bai, Song Chuan and Simon Chang -_-"" act cute...

Ok this is with the Club 69, with our Guru who looking at my sushi, Deva, Kelvin, Juliet Kang and Lavania... I think Deva wanna to steal my sushi -_-|||

Orite tis is the happy time with... Mr Hisham,... Choon York Boon, ermmm tat guy behind Chuan Gang I think either the Facitiator or Chuan Gang's Friend, stanley, eddie...ermmm this handsome guy I really nv catch his name... and also our proud engineer who get into NTU 2nd year, Weide...

Ok this is my FYP team member and the leader of the team Carl.... I really dunno how to spell this long name..O_O

Donald the big boy in SEG... but also funny one...lol

Dayalan The God of SEG...wow he also another top student but when team up with kelvin... the "evil" mind come to works. LOL!!!

The man in uniform...Kelvin...

Ok this is Colin and Mr Hisham....lol

Me and Mama... well the background is suck T_T

Me, Angie ...finally get to take picture with her in formal...Ah Chai and Rongua.. -_-

Ok this is the 2nd shot cuz the first shot albert was about to get in the picture but my sis suddenly snap the pic then he say aiyah...lol

Ah Ben our another top student also....woof!

This picture really nid to grab they all to take together...Jun Yuan, Tall Guy and Candy.

Jun Lin a.k.a Pooh Gong... another one of my FYP team mate... ya hor I forgot to take Beatty also O_O"""

After that they all planning to go for KTV at clementi... but still unsure which KTV they all wanna to go... Cuz there have KBox and Happy World....but no matter I better get home and change out of that darn white shirt... that bloody shirt isnt make out of cotton and I feeling damn hot and sticky wearing that shirt...

So now back to job hunt for me as the others going to NS and some already hold on to their Job.... Geez!

I walk alone....

2006-05-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Damn tired to think that problem keep piling over each other and nv be solve YET! I wish for solution and I noe GOD is testing our patient and our faith to over come the suitation. I pray to be a better person but people yet to see and still getting the ideas that I jus slacking behind. I'm too good to people and people tend to step over you and taking advantage of ur goodness. Damn! How can I be so stupid! I shouldnt trust that Marlina Amuk... I dun care if i post her name here cuz she deserve to be here and she is under my black listed list. Damn! I'm so naive to trust people and ended up getting me in trouble. I should file a police report on her. If I am evil I should post her address and home number in here. And u all are welcome to call her. But I wont cuz its not a clever idea to do it. I dun give a damn if she not happy... rite here rite now I'm not going to be people please so to hell with her. I have my family problem and she never think about people problem and asked how am I. If I can turn back time I would change the history.

Freedom but Unemployed

2006-03-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

Its been weeks after the graduation and still unemployed. I sent out alot of resume online and there no reply yet to come and event a single interview... Is my luck running out or something??? Rite now at home rotting in process.

But that doesnt mean I never went out to have fun or something. Last Sunday went out for the primary school gathering and meet up with Sharon, Nisheng, Karen, Aylwin, Wee Kok and also his gf too. Its been ages nv meet with them and there alot of stories to catch up. I still lost contact with Lifen, Aishan, Aishah, Yoges, Nazim, Fairuzah, Saifullah and more of the '94 batch. The problem is that when they spilt out the name of the people, I already blur out. I need to remember the person face rather the name cuz I dun have time to memorize everyone name in one shot. The funny part of the outing is where to go and eat?? I know I'm really troublesome person cuz I nid to find the eating place which is halal. And they all wanna to go eat steam boat. Gomen but what to do I also no ideal where is the halal place around suntec where is cozy and also the price is afforable. Then we when to swensen, already settle down then someone bought up the ideal to go to Sakura.... Then paiseh lor all ciaoz from there and head out to Sakura.... but the problem is, where is sakura located??? Either Simie, Tampinese or Pasir Ris... Its really wild goose chase at the expressway road to figure it out.

Then on Wednesday when to checkup for my gastric problem. The hospital clinic is damn jam pack and have to be really patient to wait for your turn. This female doctor which consulted me is newbie and bloody attitude. Asking me do I have any allergy with the medicine, the I say ya, asking me what is the name of the medicine? How should I know the name of the medicine then she question me back how can i give you the medicine if you dunno the name. Its true I never bring the medicine with me then I told her inside the medicial record from polyclinic got written lor... kao they never read is it or plain lazy. After the "consulted" with the bitch, take up the appointment which I will go for the scope next monday 3rd April at 2.30pm. If not I wanna to have it a.s.a.p by tomorrow but the specialist shecdule is pack. T_T so rite now I living in fear as I scared the pain will strike on me anytime. But I do watch my diet and watch what I eat.

After the check up, me, siew sze and angie went to xiao bai side there to go for swim... darn its been ages I when for a swim. And when I swim, I like drowing fat cat. My face keep going under but after few time then I managed to stay up. Kaoz so tiring.

Graduation and Celebration.... Gonna Miss ya'all

2006-03-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yes finally graduate and free liao but also now stress finding job and such. Gonna miss all the monkeys and the dudettes of the SEG.... The Facilitators....

Million thx to friends who really make my world around and befriend with me for who I am.... taking up my nonsense and my irritating voice. I better list out all the names out or not u all gonna kick my ass...

(The name in random)

Happy Trees Friends
Kelvin the Lifty, Corene The Petuna, Colin The Mole, Deshan the Nutty, Vincent the Toothy, Ren Wan The Flaky?!?!, Song Chuan the Flippy

Dota KaKi:
CLement, Alan, Albert, Randy, ZM, Siew Sze, Ah Cai, Yao Kai, Zhang Chi, Zhang Xin, Xiao Bai, Ben, Hor Fun, Hui Min, Ah Siong, Wen Chang, Stupid Siper...I seriously dunno how to spell ur name Hunter..... i think that all the people...if i forgotten some one do tell me...

The "Hunks" and Babes 2005/2006:
Stanley...thx u for help me alot, Dina, Dengsi, Chee Ming, Ivon, Carl, Yuh Woei, Candy, Ham, Kenneth, Faisal, Qayyim, Le Tze, Fairuz, Faizal, Izuan, Eusoff, Ahmad, Siti, Syfiq, Gary, Wen Haooooo... how RW call u??, Beatty ?!?!, Sethes, Samugen, Jun Lin ... Pooh Gong, Noah, Jun Yuan, Tall Guy, Desmond, Patrick, Eric, Aurora, Dexter...botak, Almen.... nv fail to irritate me, Deva the Guru 69.... the bully also, Jian Rong, Rui Sen, Ganga, Jerald, Eddie...stupid daddy, Yow Fei....nv fail to get irritated, Yit Yee, Kim Seng, Chuan Kang, Ranjeet, Dayalan, Nantha..........and many more.... Jialat

Toilet KakI
Lavania, Siew Sze and Angie .... when every we wanna to go big business either one of us will go and we will gossip... even tat time the whole cubicle is occupid by the four of us... wahahhaha

The Anit-David Club -_-||"
Majority

Bazaar Gang:
Gui Ling, Jian Fei, Shelly, Jennifer, Nadiah, Dianel, Ginny, Evieon, Pei Jun, Chilin our president, Gerdine, Johnny boy, Dorcas and the 1st years peoples... i dunno if they remember who is who. To the facilitators, Angela Koh & Juliet Kang. If i Left out do tell me.

Wah Liao its almost the whole SEG people siak.... O_O i think my vulgarity do spread around so much...wahahha. Ya been ups and downs together and manage to pull it thru' Hope after graduate we still keep in touch and if got any event do let me know and i try to be there.... I lost it once and i not going to lost it again.

Here are the pictures taken on the last week of the school...

Monday : http://s8.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0STTVS6MDPHDU23SO20KLHOEXW
Tuesday: http://s18.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1B8F0PTZBEMGJ3BK2LA8ZFQONR
Thursday: http://s8.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2FI00MM32S4GI2XW87GBA96S8E
Friday: http://s8.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=08Y3YC0K4IZUU38FOMMQKVPPSI

Finally Home Sweet Home

2006-03-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today dad discharge from the hospital and he really happy to get out of the boring hospital which he cant get to watch tv and such... I should guess that the feeling is like reborn. Nevertheless he trying to adjust riding the wheel chair around the house and also getting around into the toilet and going on the bed. His been moving around too much till it bleed.

Supposely to upload the picture yesterday which I took with SM0204 picture... well not all came but its a blast that I took with whoever in the class and took together with my 16 weeks team mate... wahahhaha

And also taking picture with angie, lavania, siti and Siew Sze and also SAM the pimp wahahah just kidding... he say all gals and he alone guy then i though wahhh u like a pimp.

Dilemma February

2006-02-27T11:11:00.000+08:00

I gotten sick and well and sick again... the gastric problem wont go away and if got also its temporary... the doctor warned me if the pills if finish and the pain still there, he wanna to sent me to hospital to go for the scan. Further more the FYP burden is gone but the on the 23/2/2006 is the history of the family life. Dad and 2nd sis involve with the bike accident near the German centre. Dad gotten fractures on his right leg and sis gotten away with scratches and bruises. That bloody idiot biker he dunno whether to speed up when he approaching the traffic line and the traffic is turning to ambre light... most likely the vehicles approaching the line and in the high speed should go one and this fucker dunno how the hell he pass his license. He suddenly break and my dad couldnt swirl in time and bang the bike. if he swirl to the right lane, both my dad and sis will be kill by the on coming cars.
I know also when 2nd sis called up and the feeling is like an wind explosion. Got how to break the news to mum... she gonna get the shock of her life if this happen...
Now he hosptialise and undergo with an operation. Probably be discharge 2mlm.

Dad looking sian staying in the hospital..

Top View and if you can see the blood @_@ its all tat idiot fault....

Here are the few pictures of last week of RP. I took it today and I hoping to gather alot pictures as possible and make it like a booklet....

Me, Dengsi and Lavania.... also the mistery rabbit finger at the back of my head -_-""

Promoting Embedded System products?!?!

The Four Stooges

In the Lab

Gastric... Heartburn

2006-02-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

Damn i though that thursday i wanna to ponteng cuz got the film shooting for the class and its so damn shag to do that again. End up i gotten gastric then develop heart burn. Jialat the old medication not working and have to waste 40++ to get higher dose of drug. =.=" ITS been going for over three days and that medicine making my urine so yellowish and the shit so..... pale? I lost for words.. Haiz.. My babies cousin is here and at least there a sound of the little feet running around the hse... tat entertain my mum and dad... oh ya yesterday when to orchard though of having gathering for the former ITE kaki... majority are working so cannot help it but wat i dun like is that the couple make us go fly kite... ok lah they all say they MIGHT come.... If i noe they dun come I call Slut to come down at least karaok more syok... got more kaki.... haiz I so SUCK in planning the outing T_T....

Selama Tahun Baru Maal Hijrah 1427

2006-02-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

Today is new year for the islamic and some pray to all muslim brothers and sister..bring happines to the family, be healthy, fortune befall on you, be strong with your faith, bring prosperity to the worship, cast off the evil deed and let the Islamic seed be strong with full of love and caring without any doubt.... sori ah i translate from malay to english so the sound funny abit...

ASSALAMUALAIKUM (W.B.T.)
Muharram: 1st Month of the Islamic Calendar

(Islamic Times, Manchester. Vol:13 - May 1998)

The Tenth of Muharram and Ashurah (On Thursday, 9th Feb 2006)
The Islamic year begins with Muharram ul Haram, the first month of the Hijri Calendar. While followers of other religions spend their opening month in worthless merriment, the first month of Islam teaches us lessons of admonition, good counselling, knowledge of Allah Ta’ala, sacrifice, selflessness, patience and seeking the pleasure of Allah Ta’ala.

The tenth day of Muharram (Ashurah) has many distinctive qualities and features. Allah Ta’ala created the heavens and the earth on this blessed day. On this day He gave His infinite blessings and bounties to many of His Prophets and delivered them from the clutches of their enemies.

Allah Ta’ala created Hazrat Adam (Alaihis-Salam) in this month, pardoned him of his mistake, and Hazrat Noah’s (Alaihis-Salam) Ark landed successfully on Mount Judi, and he saved Hazrat Ibrahim (Alaihis-Salam) from fire and rescued Hazrat Musa (Alaihis-Salam) from Pharaoh.

On the first of Muharram offer 2 rakats Nafl prayer. In each rakat after Surah Fateha recite Surah Ikhlas 3 times. After the Salam pray to Allah Ta’ala for all your needs and desires. From the blessing of this prayer, Allah Ta’ala will appoint an angel for such a person. The angel will guide him or her to do only good deeds and prevent them in engaging in sinful acts.

On the eve of "Ashurah" offer 100 rakats Nafl. In each rakat recite Surah Ikhlas 3 times after Surah Fateha. After Salam recite first ‘Kalimah’ 100 times. Allah Ta’ala will forgive all the sins of such a person.

Dua-e-Ashurah - An insurance for a year’s Life
Hazrat Imam Zainul Abidain (Radi Allah Anhu) reports that who ever recites this dua on the tenth of Muharram, any time after sunrise and before sunset, or listens to its recitation from someone else, Allah Ta’ala will certainly make it an insurance for a years’ life for him, by keeping death away from him. However, if one is to become the victim of death in that year, they will by some strange coincidence not remember to recite it.

Nafl Salat for the Eve of Ashurah
On the eve of Ashurah offer 4 rakats Nafl Salat as follows: In every rakat after Surah Fateha recite "Ayetul Kursi" once and Surah Ikhlas 3 times. After completing this Namaz recite Surah Ikhlas 100 times. Allah Ta’ala will purify such a person of all their sins and grant them endless bounties and blessings in paradise.

The Fast of Ashurah
On the 9th and 10th of Muharram, one should fast. If it is not possible to fast on both days, then every effort should be made to fast on the 10th day of Muharram, as there is great reward for this fast. (Muslim Shareef).

The following are some of the desirable acts one should do on the day of Ashurah:
1. To observe fast on this day.
2. To give as much charity as you can afford.
3. To perform Nafl Salat prayers.
4. To recite Surah Ikhlas 1000 times.
5. To visit and be in the company of pious Ulema.
6. To place a hand of affection on an orphan’s head.
7. To give generously to one’s relatives.
8. To put surma in one’s eyes.
9. To take a bath.
10. To cut one’s nails.
11. To visit the sick.
12. To establish friendly ties with one’s enemies.
13. To recite Dua-e- Ashurah
14. To visit the shrines of Awliyas and the graves of Muslims.

Hazrat Abdullah bin Masood (Radi Allah Anhu), a Companion of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (Sall Allahu Alaihi wa Sallam) reports the following saying of the Messenger of Allah Ta’ala, "Whosoever prepares ample food and drink for his family on this sacred day and delights in feeding them generously, Allah Ta’ala will increase His provisions for that year and place much blessings and good therein."

Imam Hussain (Radi Allah Anhu) and his companions were martyred on the tenth of this month.

Like any month in the Islamic Calendar there are in this first Islamic month, many anniversaries which are celebrated every where in the world.

MAY ALLAH TA'ALA GUIDES US IN THE STRAIGHT PATH!

AMEEN

Happy Chinese New Year

2006-01-31T08:09:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all and happy happy super belated b'day to my mum on the 14th of January... Ya supposely wanna to pose the b'day issue but then really forgot to put up... wahahha.. Anyway rite now cant slp well maybe later then i slp plus slacking alot... on the thursday is test and i sure they all have the hell to study when busy collecting ang pao. Been there done that.

I saw this cover single of Gackt and he looks hot and cool in the same time... he nv stop amused me with the gothic like cover page. Wonder how he can maintain his look O_O

Selamat hari Raya Haji.....

2006-01-10T15:43:00.000+08:00

After a wk schooling and another public holiday to celebrate. This time around is hari raya haji. Where the 5th command of the God is follow to go to mecca to convert to Haji for the male and Hajar for the female. Going there isnt like u going for the vaccation but to go with the purest heart and so call cleanses yourself and with that you cannot do the three sin which is (if i correct, if wrong my Islamic brothers and sisters please correct me) to do sinful act, ermm another two i not so sure so I nid some one to fill that one out.

Anyway I studying for the advance theory and this is the 2nd time i took it and i pretty sian already to study theory... further more on friday there is robotic and automatic test going on and I have to bark up my marks... Rite now sitting at home doing nothing but I did listen to some new song bt I think you ppl out there know knew this theme song from the Bleach opening the current one. I saw the picture of the band and they consist of 6 people (5 guys and a gal) and they were really awesome. I have seen the PV and its was great. The gal she wore partial gothic skirt but the clothing is more to punkish as the song they bring is punk kind...

right now I getting Blood+ I left with esp 12 and 13... Ah ben damn funny he die die say he got esp 12 but i go search the folder onli esp 11.... wahhh get my hopes high =.=

Happy belated New Year

2006-01-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

So belated New Year and this year resolution is die die get the car licence and do well in the sch as this yr is the graduation yr plus get job. School holiday did nothing mah.. Sit at home and be lvling up in RO... But although my RO 'husband' seldom online, he did make the effort to keep in touch thru' email. How sweet is that! anyway its really interesting to getting know ppl from all walks of life and understand the situation of their life. rite now die die have to finish the project cuz i think our group kena showcase the model and our programming and the pcb got problem.. I gonna kill carl and beatty already... wahahha I think God knows wat is going thru my mind. anyway new yr resolution..... be more sensible... -_-|||

erm... nvm then... here are some of the pic I took...

during the hari raya event.... i got no pic during my b'day cuz mine is simple and boring....wahahha

One wk entries forgot to write

2005-11-20T00:45:00.001+08:00

Last saturday on the 12th I would like to thx Desmond, Jun Yuan, Tall Guy, Colin, Fayeian (I think that is the spelling), Corene and her boyfriend Kenneth, Xiao Bai, WC, Ah Ben, Albert and Angie for coming to my house for a late lunch, to the some who cannot attend nvm, next time will be the next Hari Raya....wahhaha here are some of the pic but I look ugly in that shirt but I jus show two group pic.

This is the so call formal... both albert and angie havent arrived yet

Super Informal...at least I manage to hide behind to look smaller.... wahhahaah

Later at nite, WC, Ah Ben, Albert, Xiao Bai, Angie and Angie's sister hang around at Lot 1 to watch The Exorcism Of Emily Rose so me also tag along.... but rite if you wanna the thirll and not much talk then opt this out... its about the priest who were caught for suffering Emily and they all defending in the court...blah blah blah... for me I find it too wordy...

"Eddie Guerrero, a World Wrestling Entertainment star, was found dead in his hotel room Sunday in Minneapolis, where he was scheduled to appear that evening in a WWE Supershow. He was 38.

When Guerrero did not respond to a wake-up call, hotel security at Minneapolis Marriott City Center and Guerrero's nephew and fellow W.W.E. wrestler Chavo Guerrero forced their way into the room, the police said. There were no signs of foul play or suicide, the police said. An autopsy is planned.

Eduardo Gory Guerrero was featured on the UPN series "WWE Smackdown!" He was the son of the Mexican wrestler Gory Guerrero.

Chavo Guerrero and Vince McMahon, the W.W.E. chairman, said that Eduardo Gory Guerrero was open about his past drug and alcohol abuse, but they said he had been sober for four years.

In February 2004, Guerrero became the W.W.E. champion when he defeated Brock Lesnar, a former college wrestling champion from the University of Minnesota. Guerrero lost the title four months later.

In May 2004, UPN broadcast a one-hour program, "Cheating Death, Stealing Life: The Eddie Guerrero Story," chronicling his childhood and his struggle with a drug addiction that almost cost him his job, family and life before his recovery.

He is survived by his wife, Vickie, and his daughters Shaul, Sherilyn and Kaylie Marie, the W.W.E. said."

By THE ASSOCIATED PRESS
Published: November 15, 2005

So in Remembers of Eddie I shall post the Pic Here... With the sudden death which shock the whole fan of WWE and the greatest wrestle of all time....

Test Over but task havent

2005-11-10T10:07:00.000+08:00

Lucky the power electronic and motion control test is easy cuz yesterday I just flip through the PPT and browse. But then now left with the fyp report to touch up, Yit Yee and Jonathan pp to look through and my assignment for the music appreciation.
Lucky I gotten resources for the assignment from the library or not I'll be dead shit cuz I still confuse of wat is wat.

Later maybe going down to bukit batok to M1 service to get $120 rebate for my handphone. Pokai siak cuz every month the bills about 100++. T_T

Cannot Play Ragnarok wor

2005-11-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

Damn siak already today finish download the whole exe file of sakray and rag but when reaches certain percentage got error. KNN waste my time to wait. I not sure what's goes wrong with it. Right now I re download the different installation version to see whether its really occur that I cannot play or is the program or something.... -_-"" Sian...How my 'ro husband' is left alone in the server and there will be event coming up pretty soon.

I manage to get some cat picture and they are damn adorable...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2005-11-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

1 Syawal have arrived and today is the third day of Hari Raya... diaoz really super long nv update... I did update one of the particular entry but because of misunderstanding with my friend which i find it useless to reason with him, i have to take it out to save my headaches.

Anyway before the celebration, major headaches... paint the fan and stuff and during the fasting month, I do endure all the test HE gave to me and also I come in clean with my family about my smoking habits and promise my mum that I shall not do it again.

Then come with another stuff with my friend.. (people I shall not put down this entry even if I'll have world wall three with her.) Well the whole story is that I load her money which is one hundred bucks and then I told her return to me before Hari Raya cuz i nid to buy clothes and stuff. But came the fateful wednesday that she asked me to meet her cuz her dad is going oversea to work and her dad wanna to meet me. I jus plain curious. The stupid part is that she want me to help her to tell to her dad that i loan to her 480 bucks... which eventually without thinking I go and tell tat to her dad. But that is CHEATING!! OMG I'm cheating to the elder people who my parent taught me to respect. Furthermore I did it on the holy month! My guilt is eating my consence and I having sleepless nite. That when both my sch friends and my sisters and mum pressurize me to confess to the dad. Ya its scary but its a big step. But the point is that I dunno when the dad is coming back and I dun have her extact address and her dad's hp number. when I sent the sms to her that i want to get the money directly from her dad, I think her suspect arose and her BF who I know tok to me. Kaoz cannot make it. So the conclusion, I get my money back, didnt meet with her dad and I have cut all ties with her.

When after the fasting month, I reflect back to what I have done and hope to put the unwanted thinks and though in the past and start anew for me to be more wiser in friendship. Although wanted to meet new people, the old wound still hurt and my friendship trust is like not treasure.

If you do read this I'm sori to say this but its truly hurt when you question my friendship especially about ur private problem between me, you and your bf. I dont say it out cuz u are nt in the state to reason out, that why i jus keep quite I dun bother to. It will not getting into anywhere. If truly I got heart or feeling for ur bf, I nv go ard and trying to snatch him away from U!!! BUT WHEN I SAY I NO FEELING MEANS I NO FEELING FOR HIM! U dun have to keep saying thing like 'oh maybe u do onli u dun know..' WTF!!! you are question my friendship and morale in this line. Because of this incident, we aint so close although I tried too.

Ya! I think you dunno me that well and sometime my words they seems to hurt you, well I'm sori but that is the way I am like it or nt. That is me! You can asked ard how I interact with people. To tink our friendship can last longer, until here I have to make the line to it. Good Bye!!!

Finally FYP interim presentation is done... now the next phrase...

2005-09-01T13:16:00.001+08:00

I was so nerves wrack that started to think that I someone calling my name in the wee hour of the morning. Some more its a small kid voice. To think its 7th month... the chinese ghost month...ok lah not that the chinese culture is my culture cuz I malay, but we asian got alot of pro and con with the culture and need to respect that. Well stress out so much lately this few wk. Maybe i starting to hear things.... wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Anyway the fyp presentation is over and our elements of the project isnt working... the teachers shoot us to the core and maybe few of the element isnt there. kaoz... already yesterday first day working and then instead tell them come late around 6 plus end up at 7 plus wahahhaha. Overall the setting of the festival is ermm unique. Ya it doesnt felt like work but more into bazaar project. At least got some kaki and the bazaar kaki there. WAhahaha. But yesterday really went back home really late. T_T

Haiz my com Reformate..... I got no pic to put..... how?!?!

Sick Siak

2005-07-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

Wahhh yesterday the guys really make me and Sue go fly kite siak... the both of us was suppose to have the primary school gathering at Starbuck Orchard @ Somerset there. Then the both of us gotten there scared that the others come already... end up the both of us wasted times there. The drinks sucks and we were dead bored. Then ended up called up Ah Ben who with the others monkeys and his friends having dinner at PS.... wahhh hungry siak... so the both of us take the scroll down to PS and called then up saying that they were planning to go to park lane... caozzz another fellow... he say change of plan cuz scared no time to go to China Black... -_-|| Then the yesterday outing is serious ........

Haiz its been about a week since the KL trips but I still suffer from cough and flu and so damn tiring siak... I can't eat well.... no appeitied siak..... And I being slping the most of the day during the weekend... -_-|| no life siak like this....

Anyway someone turn 20 years old this year and none others then the white chicken...

wahhahah Should do something with the hair liao.... yaya the guys bought him a External HDD... tat day i go and drank the cough syrup... wahhh damn drowsy siak... even i get piss off so easily...-_-|| so children dun take drowsy pills when you in school... trust me....

Welcome Back!!!

2005-07-14T11:54:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha ages havent upload any data about the story.... finally over with the PP presentation and finally pass at last!!! Then got the bazaar camping this want is super damn funny story liao.... we got sound machine, the chio bu and the eating machine in the bazaar not to forget the tallest guy from china. whahaha damn tall liao... the eating machine no other then benjamin.... kao during the BBQ time he really can eat macam the garbage liao.... scary liao... its like his stomach capacity is really damn eternity liao.. I also loose to him leh how???
The sound machine more funny she slp can loose to her leh. She making alot of funny sound and the loudest.... wahahhaha.... but overall the bazaar camp really the blast.

Then go back kampung seeing my aunty wedding.... wahhh like want to cry leh... totally different from singapore style. There no kompang and.... later u see the picture y i say till like tat. So like dead leh.... Lucky my mum make some entertainment so tat the bridegroom and the bride dun feel so 'dead'.

Then come back to singapore have to scrifices doing the FYP.... wahhhhh shag liao.... But when school reopen there tones of test and shit thing
but the best part is tat we all go karaok and i can really loose my voice half way... damn siak

NaNaNiBuBu

2005-05-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

2mlm test and today destress writing my blog. kaoz the bloody caleb really getting on my nerves. ok lah he trying to be helpful by giving alot of tips but also his joke also "cold" and also can shoot people upside down. So ok lah I not computer genius but I really getting my brain to do some reading on C programming shit thing.

Ok finally I get over with the presentation and make it, having the tea party for the bazaar and step down from the MC.... slack time..... and also packing my bag to go balik kampung liao.... here we go again......

Wednesday PP Presentation!!!

2005-05-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

Okok I noe havent yet post anything exciting liao. Bz with the CCA launch, doing the PP poster for the presentation, FYP etc etc... CCA we all nt selling anything but we do bring in MR. D van and decorated it. Then the gaming part is to hook the tibits from the baby pond with the original price there then u have to guess the mark up price and if correct u win the tibits. But in the late afternoon its really rainning heavily.

2mlm is my pp presentation and rite now i'm so nervous rack.... dunno whether can make it or nt. Pass or nt

Wednesday PP Presentation!!!

2005-05-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

-_-|| So dead

2005-04-24T16:05:00.000+08:00

"Which JRock Vocalist Are You?" Take the Quiz at Aseriana.net!

Ya its been a week since the sch reopen and i really lacking of slp jus to finish the PP which due on friday... I managed to finish my PP on thursday nite and on the friday morning then i send in. Phew!! nt enuf slp some more go take FTT at BBDC. Kao the test is tricky but i have to pull it thru' cuz I getting drowsy as well.

The class is fine.... three gals and all guys again! Haiz!! The teachers are suck especially the Sensor Tech. one. Kao cannot take it siak... he really kao pe with me upside down... he's dead!!! anyway.... rite now my mind is so heavy cuz think alot about the bloody project and also erm my friend... lol

Strawberry Diecream :
Your all about fun. Your pretty commanly found ,
but your sweet , and your funny . Your a comman
favorite among fans , so your well respected
and loved.

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Thursday..... hummm thursday wat???

2005-04-07T09:18:00.000+08:00

'x' diaoz its really ages lor havent updates.... paiseh.... bz mah rushing in and out of hospital cuz My elder sister is admitted in and having an operation to take out the crystal in the womb there.... i think tat is suppose to be. Then maybe their dream to have children will be filfull.... ya be married for couples of year surely they want to hear the footsteps of child running around and giggle happly in the small house.... Eh who knows dream do come true if u believe in it...

T_T I dun managed to watch the Simple plan concert.... tat sound fun cuz wat i know they should know how have good time.... Avril Lavigne is another story. I read the articles and she sound so stuck up and making the confesses that she isnt the punk rock but pop rock... wat the heck... already from early stage she declared tat she is the punk with the stupid ties and wife beat singlet. So sue me for making the sarcastic remarks on her.... even her concert onli HALF of the stadium her so called fan turn up and mostly its the young teenager who bring along their mummy and daddy along to occupy the empty slot.... Anyway someone fill in the information is the Good Charlotte concert over??

GACKT should suit you!

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So bloody Dead Bored

2005-03-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

Wasted my four days doing nothing and rotting away... anyway next wk my elder sis gonna have her minor operation as there are growth of cyrstal or that wat it suppose to be called. And My dear shelly she nt in the singapore....if nt jio her go work together with me lor at least still got income in my pocket and stuff. WAHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCKING SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!

here are something tat I upload for some ppl tat i noe enjoy play ard...

Air. You think before you act, you look before you
leap. You are very direct, which sometimes can
hurt others. You are always looking for the
truth behind things. Of all the elements,
you're the wisest.

What is your element?
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Justice and Morality: You believe in doing what is
right for others and maybe even for yourself.
People would consider you one with good morals,
and someone who would not let them down.

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~ I'm Back at Last ~

2005-03-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

Ya, finally the sista have come back to singapore.... wahahahah ya finally come back home with a few weighs put on.... shit... ya rite now going to go back to my usual diet. Ok the weather over there is damn freaking hot and I end up getting tan... T_T there goes my skin... and barely can go out of the house... the sun glare is so bright until the plantation dried up and the padi field is so 'dead'.

Ya come back to kampung do bring good news and bad new... the good news is that my aunty is getting married and with 40s year old man with 4 children all grew up. O_o"" dun asked maybe its their fate to be together.... so maybe they will getting married on the june when all of us having holidays including the malaysian.

The sad part is that my so-called grandpa pass away on the 24/3/2005.... y i called 'so-called' is because he like never enknowledge us as grandchildren and I kinda disappointed but my step grandpa gave us all the love we get although nt blood related...

I'm jealous!

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~ I'm Leaving On The Jet Plane, Not Knowing When I'll Be Coming Back ~

2005-03-18T08:30:00.000+08:00

Its been almost a wk since I updated it... lolzz... ok event happening is nothing much except that I got to come back to the Bazaar because of the event going on, 3 on 3 Basketball....BIG game in short.... consident huh with our club name B.I.G. ITs freaky hot and my skin gotten darker and I gotten rashes forgoodness sake... I wondering what happen siak... The game go well except some accident like broken arm I heard and kapok go and see see and also one fight between the group after the matched... hey guys where is ur sportmanship liao... relax lah chill out dudes!! Ya on that day I didnt perform well on my duty....TGL got asked me to rank myself, I rank it the lowest.... I serious dun like heat so in the end when someone asked me nt to come so oklor.... no offense liao cuz my type is when someone say like tat I will... anyway meet up with Toothy, Stupid Bear and Dotter go watch movie... ya at first is like shocking but then I tulan with the bunch of the youngster which scream as if got cockroaches go inside their pants... kns its nt that scary lor they scream like as if the cockroaches were there... kns boring siak... dun watch Boggieman, not worth it liao... the story line is basically asking that fellow to over come his fear and the boggieman will disappeared.... LAME!!!

Then spend most of my time play game and rite now i rushing to do my PP.... haha cuz today going off to JB sleep over at my grandpa hse then on the next day then go off to northern part of malaysia... So going to be MIA for awhile....

So Guys if there any goosip or hot story just drop the bomb at my Gossip corner and Be sure I will up dated it.... Ciao!!!

Saturday IT Road Show

2005-03-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

Wahhh kns the place damn pack jam and I carrying my bloody lappy along... damn heavy liao... ya cuz go installed the ram the on the way go there together with frendz... ya the stuff there is affordable and can find and see see some cheaper prices to compared. Yup its soooooo affordable till my feet been step so many time... no wonder becoming flat diaoz... anyway its fun lor....

Ya i intend to open up the gossip corner but then... diaoz and anyway, DIR EN GREY ALBUM IS OUT LIAO and i havent lay my hand on the cds yet... wahhhhh... i heard from
Lifty say his friend say not so nice or something like tat and I read the comment from the fans they sort of like some of the songs and vice verse... Who got the songs do msn me @ direngrey09@yahoo.com T_T Plz Plz i want to listen at least the few songs which I havent heard other then saku and some others singles which have been heard b4. THX!!!

Die! You should definitely want to introduce your
family to Die. Fun-loving and amusing, he'll
make a good impression. Everyone is sure to
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Wah Liao

2005-03-09T07:31:00.000+08:00

ITs going to be the end of the 2nd yr and yahoooooo long holiday.... aiyoh after the short trip need to find part time job already...T_T scared kena seagate again siak... can vomit blood... ya lor my wishing list havent fillful yet leh and I got tons of other stuff to buy.... wahahah gals shall never say enuf one...

i'm thinking of opening an gossip corner at another blog but then I scared i have no time to maintain it so rite now i guess to open up in here.... heck care wat other thinks because the gossip corner is for everyone... YESH everyone to shout out their mind but plz no critise or backstab on each other hor... later all comeback pin point on me... at least tis is so call get the things out of ur mind and heart which bothering you......

You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Getting things out of my mind

2005-03-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

Sian lehhhhhh stay at home and rots.... ya I watch the news about the accident and things happen around the world... Its getting terrible liao... the weather and stuff... Is the mother nature fallen sick and dying or its the God's message regarding the end of the world??? Wat ever is it, its time to save our only home..... tat including me T_T...

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For all intensive purposes, your Alpha Male seems like the "normal" boyfriend. He gets along with family and friends, is considerate and thoughtful in his actions, and his biggest priority, like every good Alpha Male, is *you*. The thought of you coming to any discomfort often prevents him from engaging in more typical Alpha Male behavior and thushe is generally exempt from mood swings and bursts of silence. However, caring does not equal sharing to this Alpha Male and when he feels anyone is trying to come between you, his less than genial side begins to show. In the end, though, so long as he doesn't feel threatened by any third party, the two of you are destined for happiness.
Which Alpha Male is right for you?
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Between fate and faith

2005-03-03T20:19:00.000+08:00

Wahhh Sori guys this time around I'll not be in joining in the chalet. Well first is that I really need to get away from Singapore before the coming 3rd year and plus I got 3 wk left to work.... probably work in Seagate again... -_-....

So little time so much to write...

I just read up one articles about the tsunamin event and its co-related to judgement day simbol... on why we got frequent earthquake and this time its getting worse. Well its time for me to wake up and do some good deeds. I still considered shallow in the religion terms and I will going to take up the religion classes to indepth in the knowledge. Its a waste if I dont do this. Like isnt forever and for us Islamic when we pass on, the Angel will asked as wat deeds do we actually do to serve the God. I havent but I determined to do it. My late grandma always asked me to go to the religion talks, afraid I will drifter off further from my faith. Ya I admitted that I haywire but I know the different between good and bad. Its all in your mentally thinking and your will power to see it. Challenges that HE given is also another factor which we have to overcome. HE shall see how we going to handle the situation and pray for him for HE created us and take us away.

Ok now is the chalet matter.....Colin, The chalet isnt organized my me and this time around I aint going. So the uninvited part is you got to ask the organized which is Eddie.... I think i not sure who actually the organizer. Is that answer ur question?

die

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Suay Monday Blues

2005-02-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

Sian Lehhhhhhhhhhhh..... I got my bloody mood swing and guilty guts for no reason... and today classroom is full of negative energy which I like a sponge absorded the "energy" and making myself feeling suck-down-to-the-drain... So basically this wat causes the monday bluesssss.....

The bloody aircon is like not working and its making alot of noise as if there something stuck there.
Today is the GCE "O" level result out and of course some are happy with it and some.... oh well sad lor.... The idiot part is the PAPA BEAR asked me to consult beattty who are really pouring tears out. No offense liao cuz I also pretty suck in consulting part and tat making me more worst in finding some kinds of encouraging words in soften and nice voice tune.
The two mangkuk who I though jus goofy around and wrestle each other.... I never expect to be the refeer.... kns grow up liao.....you all aint 5 yrs old kids leh.
Then the smell of the burning plug from the other table.... shit Ah Gong go and accentially switch off my lappy. I never instead the battery liao.... T_T all kang cho spider....

Wahhh 2mlm PCD sian leh.....

You're a Dreamer. You've only got 1 best friend,
YOU. You're to busy living in your own little
world that you forget there's more out there.
Just open your eyes for once and see what the
world has to offer.

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Lazy Saturday

2005-02-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

Wah sian.... damn bloody hot weather then now raining cat & dog... Diaoz I still havent completed my PP and still feeling slacking... Actually today planning going to JB go visit my grandpa but then yesterday sleep quite late and then today wake up quite early.... now feeling giddy... so I though might as well I finish up my PP but then the information of my dad and the company is abit lag. I got to take out the finances part because his working line doesn't include in financing department. He under security department... Imaging that been working under the same company for almost 30+ years. Surely got thousand and one story to tell mah but the information i gotten is like too little. Damn now got to cook up some story tale in the report. Sian then need to do the poster.

Ya, then the holiday is around the corner and surely i gonna stuck at home rotten to pieces. I think this holiday I not looking for the job yet cuz going off to do some visiting. My late grandma sister is not well. Then got bazaar activity, chalet.... I wish the bazaar plan to go to genting for the trip. I dun like the idea going to the Bangkok, Thailand liao.... cuz over there having some clivil war or something.... Call me anything you want, this is life.... once you shot there will be the chances of you live!!!

The Opening of My Blog

2005-02-25T12:21:00.000+08:00

Diaoz... Testing Testing.... rite now me in the class doing simply nothing much as my friends is doing the presentation power point. Done already so rite now slack.... wahhahaha.... Ai yoh today is Microcontroller and I simply suck in the thing.... siao!!! Then later on gonna re take PCB. and stay die!!!

Your Heart is Black

What Color is Your Heart?
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