Pounder and Wonder
Hummm didnt see Tetsuki for these few days. Either hidding or MC for two days... what can I do? Is he ok?
Already early in the morning my boss called with the angry tone asking why can't I followed simply proper instruction. Why the big fuss? I just cc the email to the secretary. I though its a necessary to do that. If I never cc to that woman I got complain. If I did, I got scolding. Haiz... that is the life of middle person....
One week plus till exam... and I yet to get myself prepared to the extreme. Got alot of information to be swallow and store in my brain hard drive... gosh... I really need to put aside my love problem and get my brain drive to full potential. Wish me luck!!!
Bury the Sorrow on 12:59:00 PM
Aching Shoulder
Die lah, my shoulder stiff and my neck can't rotate too much. Maybe was too tired and slept on one side. Yesterday I did wrote down a poem to Tetsuki, the honest feeling and how regret that I made such assumption. I don't know where am I going. If he still treated me as stranger, then I have to accept my fate that I not meant for him. Really gonna miss our daily teases, smsing and eye contact. I will really treasure the memories even its a short one. Its hurts and there a void in my heart. Emptiness.
Bury the Sorrow on 9:12:00 AM
Tragedy October
If I could overcome my weakness,
I would like to be more patient,
Not Jumping into conclusion and not being short temper.
But is it too late? Have I lost IT?
I dont what to loose him, but if he bid farewell... what that means?
Is he just disappointed with me and wanna to cool down first or seriously that the end of it.
If that was what written in the fate book, I have to accept it and I have to let him go altho my heart still beating his name.
Bury the Sorrow on 12:01:00 PM
Konichiwa
Life is full of ups and downs... pity me for being busy with School, Family, friends and extra additional too... he he .. It’s a new experience for me and really never expected that he respond the same feeling tho. But of course in every relationship it’s not all about rainbows and flowers with colourful environment. There are some boundaries to over come. Through those obstacle teaches us to learn from the mistake, be mature and move on. Don’t linger over the problem.
I still though it’s just a dream but it isn’t. Just that though he wasn’t serious, yes imaging who wants me to be their special one. I mean I don’t behave like lady like, curse and swear like a guy, talk aloud and don’t have graceful walk. Far fetch to get the guy that I so call got crush.
School, exam is around the corner and over the semester the module clashing against each other and I really got big headache to juggle all of them. It’s my mistake too. I shouldn’t choose 4 modules at one goal. Confirm my result aint that good this semester.
Further more Hari Raya just passby and didn’t manage to celebrate much. Handling assignment really hectic with the SAP thing going on which I have to cover up for Prema during her absence. Haiz
Bury the Sorrow on 3:42:00 PM
Account Closing
Hehe I am not missing in action tho. Just rather busy with schooling now. Furthermore today is account closing and I still typing in the entries. Ya, economics is gloomy and alots of laid off going off around the companies. Now even my paper work is getting lesser... must get something to do or I will get rust.
And also I am manager-less... yes no manager in my department now. My lady boss now transfer to sales department as senior sales executive. And yet again create chaotic environment. Everyone at upstair office like "OMG" and begging me to take her back. Well its her first love... Sales. So I think she wont think twice about coming down.
Hows the school?? How could I say, its really fun and challenging. Challenging as in juggle work and studies and their standard is high. Must have good command in English to generate assay... Gosh!!! Dictorary has now become my "bible" book. But I have make up my mind to change course from Business Analystic to Logicstic & Supply Chain. Well at least that's really related to what I am doing now.
Few days ago really emotion rides for me. Ya lah firstly I have no manager to cover my back and the HOD come and so called interiogate me about the backlog. I did explain everything what's going on but turn out to be deaf tone. What do you expect?! I just join the company in 1997 and the problem is there, plus its during empirer ruling. So things does not go according to plans. You expect me like suddenly can settle everything. OMG this is ongoing learning leh... I learn on job... so there will be trials and errors. Good thing over here there no such thing as guns avaliable in store... or he is the one who gets it.... or to play safe get a voodoo doll and pins him all over... My old supervisor also another one... another KNS!! since the lady boss is no longer, he kinda got the power and its going into his head. Everything go up to HOD complain!!! not about me but my senior too!!! Wahhh one bloody toad he is!!!
Bury the Sorrow on 5:58:00 PM